"A Beautiful Lie" by 30 Seconds To Mars
OK another youtube video to test out the fat green pipe's problem. I think they are cleaning up the problem gateway by gateway in each area. So "new user" I guess just wait out your turn ba. :)
Anyway just caught this on MTV just now during my usual morning channel surfing. Kinda like the music video and how its done. Must be the Alaska background that caught my attention.
Video also has a deeper meaning I guess other than the usual save the earth from global warming as it was mentioned that the video will be environmentally safe and for every download of the video, it will go to an environmental charity.
To me it talks about living life and how we can sometimes end up living a lie to bluff ourselves that everything is happening as we want it to be when it is just the opposite. How we try to cover up everything with lies and more lies to cover those initial lies.
But at the end of it all, as I have learned the hard way recently, is it all worth it? I have been living a lie myself for a good 2 years, thinking that as long as I prove my point that I am still the better one after that incident which tore my heart out back in poly. Finding distractions to feed my own emptyness and inferiority complex. And each time it gets darker and darker as more lies build onto more lies.
At the end of it all, I am thankful that I never succeeded in what I set out to do. Who knows what I would have become, continuing to live out that beautiful lie I crafted for myself.
Maybe one day I will share what happened all those dark years but it sure will not be here on blog spot. Ok time to go grab lunch and check out Ironman stuff since it opens today.
Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.
My way of holding onto the things I love, the Things I am and the Things I never want to lose...