One Week On...

I awoke again and this time I did not bother to check the time. I knew the time from the picture outside my window. Its 0700 and a little bit. Last night sleep was the usual not complete type that I usually have.

Well at least my appetite is back on track. Finished a whole nugget meal except 6 pieces of fries and cold dessert after that yesterday.

I drag myself to my pc and first person I see online is good old Sebastian. I guess this is one of those times I am glad is he is in UK with the difference in time as I think the rest of the Singapore is still sleeping or on their way to work or school.

A chat later I think I get the general idea what is bothering me even after my mind is made up. The more I run from it, the more it comes back to haunt me. Or rather in this case the more I dun want to settle it with myself in my usual cross the bridge before I even get there way and leave it to come what may, the more I struggle with it inside.

I am learning to let go in another way which I am not comfortable with. I guess this is going to take time. But its only when I can let go in this way with no speculations of my future would I be ready to accept whatever comes my way fully.

Its going to be another 3 months before Sebastian comes back to Singapore. By then I would have completed my degree course and be looking for a job. Or rather I might take a break as he comes back the week immediately after my final year project presentation.

Maybe take the week off to spend some time with him catching up and of cos with the rest as I think he would also want to do some catching up with everyone. I still remember "Operation Sebastian" the last time he was back and boy did all hell break lose... lol.

Guess at the end of it all for now, this is something to look forward to. But for now, maybe I should try to go back and get some sleep or something. A new week has dawned and new challenges will arise as do every week of my life so far.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.