Looking Forward...

Its Tuesday, I woke up and looked at the window as I always do. Something looks different. I search for the time and let out a silly smile to myself. The first number says 9 and I sink back into my pillow.

The tunnel looks like its still going on forever although The light has gotten brighter. Not enough to see the exit but enough to encourage me to move on. There was never a right decision to make in the sense that at the junction, the tunnel split into as many as 2,3 or even 5. Taking a step of faith forward I just moved into one of them.

The outcome will still be the same. I would eventually get out of the tunnel and into the light again. But where I come out is unknown. But the important thing is for me to come out from the dark.

The pain will still be there thats for sure. I am after all still human and as Samantha puts it, one cannot just switch it off like the ceiling lights in your room. It will take some time but hey it always does. I have not met a human who can truly honestly say he or she can shut feelings off immediately.

And as I look outside my window, memories of my friends and their encouragement continue to flood my mind. The words they said, the smiling faces and the fun times we had over the week ever since my world crashed in.

I suppose with all that, this decision while painful in its nature, might not hurt me that much after all. And thats what living the human life is all about. Living and moving on with life's trials with people around you. A single chopstick can be broken easily, but add a few more and it gets harder to break them together.

It has also been a good time of reflection for me. And I guess sometimes things like that bring you back to the narrow track when we gone astray. But I am thankful that whatever that came, whatever that needed a response from me, I did the right thing. Not that I am strong but rather HE has shown me bit by bit who I am and what I can do. After all, never once are we to be tested beyond what we are capable of.

The Sun is fully out on this side of Singapore and shines brightly on my window.
Its time to start a new day.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.