Memories To Hold

Gone...

2008-08-06T23:58:00.002+08:00

Gone
Like yesterday is gone
Like history is gone
The world keeps spinning on
You're going, going, gone
Like summer break is gone
Like Saturday is gone
Just try and prove me wrong
And pretend like you're immortal

Promises made, every memory saved...

2008-08-03T23:03:00.002+08:00

Spice Girls - Viva Forever

I never really bothered about the Spice Girls but this song somehow always got my attention.

Anyway its time to say goodbye to blogspot. Many memories have been made here with different blogs and will be left here. These memories, happy or sad ones are part of my life and I guess to delete these blogs that contain them would be just cruel.

I guess as they are kept in the servers to be hosted here, these will be a good reminder for me to continue to grow and look forward.

Well I guess this will be my last post here in blogspot. Its been many years of posting from my poly time to army to working and even through my uni life. I do not know when I will start blogging or where I will blog them on but I guess memories will always be remembered one way or another.

Until Than,
Kenneth.

傻傻的心痛也不覺疼...

2008-08-02T16:45:00.002+08:00

"一人一半"

I guess I never got the feel of the song until last night and I guess this ends another chapter in my life. Would there be a continuation or would this be the final end to the story no one knows. Life has its ways I guess.

Well off to get ready for my AHM training.
15km hopefully it shall be today.

Kenneth.

The answers that we'll never find...

2008-07-31T07:41:00.004+08:00

Boys Like Girls - The Great Escape

Another song that's been playing in my mind yesterday as I was looking through and sorting out the CTI pictures.

Note to self, I need to go shopping again soon. New pair of work jeans(the type that can match any colour pollo tee type), 1 or 2 dark colour dark pollo tee and the crumpler camera strap I have been eyeing for a long time so that I dun have to wear a collared top to reduce the risk of the my nikon camera strap irritating my neck.

And its off to work,
Kenneth =D

You Got Me On My Knees Jenny...

2008-07-30T12:12:00.004+08:00

It was one crazy, fun, interesting day and definitely one to remember. And that in a nutshell was how my first day out with the CTI team was.

From the school stage...

to the canteen, they were there singing and playing their hearts out.

And the students definitely enjoyed every minute of their performances. Pictures, exchanging of emails and autographs were just the few things that can be seen once the whole thing was over.

And because of that, the song Jenny kept playing in my head. Somehow the song kept playing over and over.

Next its off to Zouk to attend the Power 98 event on Elliott's invite.

It was the Powerjam 2008 finals and the Singapore music awards all in one night.

Looks like media pantry is gonna have some additions when I get back to office. BTW thats my fruit punch if anyone is wondering.( Although I wanna complain cos it was missing the cheery=[ )

Sebastian, Elliott and a very tired Kenneth trying to pose for a picture.

Well today is going to be kinda quiet as I need to settle my school graduation admin stuff and do some serious thinking although deep inside I already know the answer. Guess once again I need the conviction to move forward.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

That Familiar Comforting Feeling...

2008-07-28T22:38:00.004+08:00

As you can see I undertook a new design template. I am still searching for a nice picture for the banner before I change the colour scheme. Hmm, maybe I should just take one myself and fireworks it.

Anyway This week marks my return to SYFC as a project servant. Not the usual small loud kids running around during the school holiday one nor the youth program type at the starting of each year. But one that has a specific set of objectives both in terms of skill sets and character development.

Its going to be a whole new ball game out there. After all my first assignment(on my own somemore) is to cover the CTI SG Team on their school tour tmr to 2 secondary schools. I have no idea what to expect since this is my first time doing coverage so hopefully I will adjust to the surroundings fast.

Team CTI 08(Taken from their webby).

I Need You - CTI Music Ministries
One of my favorite songs..

Today went rather smoothly and even though its been 2 plus years since I was there, the place felt comfortable after a while. The same smiling faces, that same Media Office and everyone seems so welcoming. Honestly I dun see myself going full time but one thing is for sure, my heart somehow feels at home here. Only thing is that Grace is away at RBC while Lydia went over to Australia so its gonna be quiet in the office for a while. But I guess with my busy schedule(from the looks of things), I dun think I will notice the empty seats in office.

Well thats about it for my update today. Gonna go check up on my equipment for tomorrow. Heard one of the school's hall has rather bad lighting so hope my little flash is going to be able to make up for it. Kinda excited and yet nervous at the same time since its an event in the public that I will be covering.

Time for their first real test!

But I guess no point worrying now. Gonna get an early night once I am done packing the stuff and head over the Macs for a big breakfast first to hopefully give me the strength for the rest of the day.

Cheers,
Kenneth :D

誰か空虚の輪郭を　そっと撫でてくれないか

2008-07-28T08:00:00.000+08:00

"ノーザンクロス" by May’n

Something new to start the new week with while I work on sorting out my blogs.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Sorting Out The Changes...

2008-07-27T03:26:00.003+08:00

Well I guess I have sorted out almost everything that I need to. Some stuff still needs more time in terms of waiting for things to be settled which is outside of my control. But for those stuff, I have more or less decided my response to them based on my overall direction in life.

Right or wrong, well that will be another story to be told next time.

Anyway since I have a bit more time before I start my attachment/ministry/work or whatever you want to call it, I will be reorganising my blogging since I have 3 blogs now.
Currently its blogspot as my main blog, livejournal for my lengthy rants or views on the things going around and wordpress for all my photos.

Current idea is to have blogspot as a summary update to my life for friends who are not in singapore or do not have the time to meet up and catch up due to clashing schedules. Livejournal for my rantings(yes I am but human and still need a way to let things out and writing them down is one way.),serious views on things happening and article type takes on things. Wordpress will still remain as my photoblog but I will add categories to sort out the type of photos and add more content in terms of witting like if I am down taking photos for a sports match or something.

In some sense this will keep my writing skills in practice since I got media and language people around reading my blogs and also to keep track of how my photography skills are doing.

Might have some changes here and there but I am kinda looking forward to it. After its back to media work so its always good to get some practice.

Okies time to get some rest before another long day ahead for me. Soccer pictures were a challenge and hopefully basketball with its smaller court will be easier.

Nights,
Kenneth.

Taking A Break...

2008-07-23T12:08:00.001+08:00

Gonna take a break from blogging for now. When I will be back I do not know but now that I have the time to think properly with nothing else weighing me down, it would be the best time to go reflect on everything and decide on my own direction in life.

Many things have happened and I truly need to sort them out on my own. To my friends, I will be leaving for a while. When I will be back I do not know but I will be back. I just need time away to really take my time to sort things out.

Take Care,
Kenneth.

And these are the moments...

2008-07-21T08:30:00.000+08:00

And so 4 months of hard work have finally come to pass. From meetings at Raffles City BK with chocolate pies to the Nugget meal upsized at Terminal 2 Macs... From camping at the National Library level 7 to hogging the 2 wall sockets at the student lounge..

Everything ended the moment the attendance was signed, the laptops packed up and that walk through that door on lvl 5 on a cold emotional friday night. Yup its finally over. All the fun, laughter, worries, disagreements and smiles and the times we shared as a group working hard to produce something worthy to be called out Final Year Project.

Well its been an interesting time certainly working with you guys and girl. Sure we had out differences in the way we saw our FYP to be like and how we would go about doing it. But at the end lets just put everything aside and give ourselves a pat on the back for a job completed.

Til the day we meet again wearing that blue colour thingy, here's wishing you all the best in your upcoming adventures with life. And before I too move on with my life after school, here is a song dedicated to you all.

"Our Lives" by The Calling

Remembering that:

These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

Cheers,
Kenneth ;)

It Ends Today...

2008-07-18T08:51:00.002+08:00

Well its friday. As one can put it, it ends today. Thats if nothing goes wrong. Well than again everything that can go wrong has gone wrong liaos so I guess it cant really get any worst as it is. Just waiting for the day to be over and I can move on with my life. Totally burnt out liaos, emotionally, physically and mentally.

Here's a nice song from the Gundam Seed OST called Find The Way. Maybe I will find my own way someday... heh...

Heh and I thought the name Mika Nakashima was kinda familiar when I first saw the Glamorous Sky video.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Changes Again...

2008-07-16T17:15:00.001+08:00

Well in less than 50 hours time, my study life would be over(unless life has other surprises for me). And it also means its time to move onto the working life. No more carefree lifestyle with no commitments to worry about. No more just my school work and my hobbies to worry about.

And if everything goes well, I should be reporting back to that familiar place 9am on monday. Maybe its someplace familiar thus the routine feeling. The same faces, the same room and even the same security guard at the entrance. But yet its still a step into the unknown. How long I will stay there is still undecided but one thing for sure, its like picking up again from where I left off 2 years ago.

Anyway there will be a few changes in the blog to reflect everything but Kenneth will still be Kenneth either way.

Nice song that I happen to come across while waiting for the visor system to be ready.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

The week ahead...

2008-07-13T22:21:00.002+08:00

Its been a slow week for me with lots of ups and down. Hellboy 2 premiere, 10km jog at east coast park, pre final presentation assessment, batman movie marathon, a visit from an old friend the flu virus and having bean curd in the back alley somewhere in town with old friends.

Next week look to be the same though. Sure its somehow filled with the final preparations for my FYP presentation, but everything is becoming so routine. Either I am so prepared for it I have no worries or I can't be bothered with it that I am just going through the motion.

Just like how my 3rd trip to crescendo was. Everyone bustling with excitment, worries and anxiousness while I just went as if it was another one of those chores or routine trip up there.

Somehow its like getting ready for a trip to who knows where. I know that it will come and everything is settled. To borrow the idea from a friend, the train is coming, the tickets have been bought and the bags have been packed. Now is just waiting for the train to arrive and board it.

Feels like a livejournal post but I think I will just leave it here. But I cant help wondering what will happen on that day. Will I be boarding the train alone. Will I see familiar faces when I get there and even if more will join me later on. Either way the train is coming and I am boarding it this time.

Well back to the week ahead, its mostly spending time with my fyp group in the first part of the day either in school or at the national library until the day of the presentation. And I guess if there are anything "happening"(borrowing the word from the salesman at the camera store), it would be a bonus to another routine week.

Anyway just a random video to end this post with. Was watching the VH1 top 100 songs of the 80s and this was one of them. Tina Areana did a good cover but somehow originals are still better.

Off to take my meds and its time to fight that ever losing battle with the Z monster...

Nightos,
Kenneth.

Faith for plan B...

2008-07-11T07:15:00.001+08:00

A idle mind is a dangerous mind. Especially one like mine. With my fyp almost done, I have more time to think and thats what I have been doing. Everything is coming to an end. The planed timelines and check points are all over.

While I do hope from the bottom of my heart it doesn't have to come to this, it does look like it will. Looks like if nothing changes(although things have their own way of suprising me somehow), it looks like its gonna be another round of stepping into the unknown again.

Yes I am worried, yes I am afraid and yes I really rather not and it goes against everything logical. But past events and experiences somehow comforts me, knowing that it always works out. After all, if even the sparrow is fed, what more about me.

Well on another note, here is a song going out to a friend of mine. Never really knew if that friend reads my blog but I will just post here. Do take care of youself too.

Ok I know its kinda off but its never easy losing someone dear. Just remember to cherish the memories and be strong and move on.

On a side note, while its translated as goodbye, the meaning is somehow lost in translation. It has more of a final goodbye with a very little chance of seeing the person again rather than the goodbye we say over the phone or when going home after dinner that sort of thing. Just a little something I learned.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

I Guess This Is It...

2008-07-10T07:45:00.001+08:00

Well there is no turning back anymore. I think more or less it has been decided. Unless something else happens (which might happen considering how suprises like to pop up on me), this is how it should be going to be.

Sometimes I guess I just need to decide on something and carry it out rather than keep worrying and end up worrying too much and miss the train like the last time. Not too sure how things will work out but hey, thats for me to find out I guess.

Anyway decided to start another blog solely for my pictures as somehow facebook and blogger like to resize my pictures. And I though 640 by 480 is already quite small for today where screen sizes are like bigger than 1024 by 768 liaos.

First set of pictures are up and the link is on the right side of this blog.

Lastly found another nice video on youtube. Sometimes its good to have that related video side bar and random clicks does find you good stuff.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

いつからあのホタルの光に気付くんだろう

2008-07-09T11:05:00.000+08:00

"Hanabi" by Spontania

Managed to find another single by the group Spontania. Seems like their music is starting to grow on me.

Nothing much is happening these days except that my leg is still kinda tired(which hopefully a good nights sleep will get it back to full strength) and I have the add on for my FYP and the final report to do up.

The hunt for the DSLR continues with the choices narrowed down to either the Nikon D60 or the Canon EOS 450D.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

君のすべてに (You Entirely)

2008-07-08T02:27:00.004+08:00

Online Videos by Veoh.com

Happen to come across this song. Cute Video and Nice tune with lyrics(well I can only guess) that fit into the flow. Looks like I found myself a new group to follow.

And my noob attempt at framing pictures although I still need lots of work on the lighting.

Okies time to sleep as I got a whole day of reports to finish up.

Nightos,
Kenneth.

Point and Shoot!

2008-07-07T10:44:00.003+08:00

Went down to the CosFest 7 at Downtown East yesterday to get some shoots. Main purpose was to get used to the weight of the camera and the amount of people meant that most of the time I only get point and shoot shots so that I dun hog the spot for too long so that the next person can get a shot as well.

What caught my eye was that Ban Leong was a sponsor, wonder if any coolermaster psu or asus graphic cards were used... :P

One of my fav cosplay was this one of Exia.

Since I was in town waiting for Elliott and Tissa, I decided to go over to the Durian and the War Memorial to get some shots as well. Somehow my mood was down thus the shots were rather "dark" and mostly point and shoots again.

Dark Gloomy skies to fit my mood...

The people who suffer the most are the loved ones and the innocents...

Guess I will go back and shoot some proper ones once I get my hands on my own DSLR. Still caught between the Nikon D60, the Canon EOS 450D and the Sony Alpha 300.

Kenneth.

Its in you...

2008-07-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

Phew, its been a crazy week and I am glad its over. Super tired from everything and I guess its time to get some sleep and wake up to a brand new week. Hopefully it gets better from here on.

"You" by Switchfoot

A nice song from Switchfoot to the video of my fav movie and in some ways sums up everything for me.

Nights,
Kenneth =)

My Duty As A Singaporean Male...

2008-06-30T06:30:00.001+08:00

Under Section can't remember what, you are hereby required to and so on...

How many of us males living in this sunny country called Singapore dreaded that day that letter came. It took away two and a half years of our lives and continue to do so for the next ten cycles.

Well its my 3rd cycle and as with everyone else I will be donning the green outfit and dragging my bag up that same old hill for the yesteryears of my life with my buddies. Somehow its a bit different this time as lots of things happened in the month of June which has left me very tired.

And in some way this will be a good chance to get some rest away from it all. After all having fun and crazy(me included sometimes) bunk mates means every ICT is an interesting experience. With new stuff to learn this time, I am kinda looking forward to it.

But just to borrow something from Elliott, I decided that this time to keep me going and to stop myself from worrying too much(something I am learning to do), I chosen my own song that I can keep in my head.

"Spin" by Lifehouse

Maybe different people look at it in different ways. But ultimately for me, it means that at the end of it all, not matter how messed up my schedule is because of this ICT(with my fyp final presentation looming ever closer), I will press on because I know what I can look forward to when I come out.

Everything that is meant to happen will happen and I do not need to change anything.

Cheers,
Kenneth. =]

How precious did that Grace appear...

2008-06-28T22:48:00.002+08:00

Its been a tiring draining week for me. Everyday filled with something to do that never seems to finish, spilling over to the next day and the same thing happens. Rushing to finish my FYP before I go for reservist which is one big disruption to my FYP work schedule.

Ignoring the fact that I was falling sick, I continued to push myself to do finish off the revised review for Sebastian's website, attend the product launch and so on. I was sure looking forward to the weekends to relax and recharge and well things decided to go other ways. Even when signs of sickness was showing, I pressed on with dinner on friday as Christina was back in town and sort of for Charlene's birthday and the movie Wanted later on.

Had to go back to camp today and that totally ruined my plan to head over to the toy convention with Samantha, her sis and the rest. And to make matters worst, my nose decided that everything took its toil and finally couldn't hold the flu back. And I got all emo thinking why should I do all this when no one actually bothered to worry that Kenneth is breaking apart.

Well I could rather not type all this and post nice pictures of everything and act as if nothing happen but I guess what I want to share is something else for this blog post.

That sometimes we all need to "break down" to learn a lesson. I guess I have been fighting on with my own strength again and well I am still but a mere human. And feeling all emo about no one caring for me is just plain selfish on my part. I should be doing these things because I want to and not because I want something in return. And that I am no superman that needs no rest.

So my dear friends who happen to read this post, do remember not to push urselves too hard. Better to live and fight another day than to die trying I guess.

But at the end of it, I guess even when I have to fall to learn a lesson, I know that I can continue to pick myself up and try again. And thats what they call "Grace", not that I deserved it, but because it was given freely.

Somehow this rendition of the ever famous song seems to really help me reflect.

Okies, gonna wait a while long so I can take my second does of medicine and get some rest.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Looking to the weekends...

2008-06-26T11:22:00.002+08:00

Phew its been a busy past few days with my FYP at its height of activity. Lots of things changed and updates had to be made everywhere. And on my end, I am just glad that my part is ready for testing. Just in time too cos I will be away on reservist next week and there are things I wanna do this weekend before my ICT.

First on the to do list is to attend the a product launch at GV Vivocity on friday afternoon.

MSI, one of the top taiwan company in computer hardware and Corbell will be launching the next generation mainstream motherboard here in Singapore and it looks to be quite a big event.

There will be a presentation MSI and what looks to be other key players in the industry, a buffet dinner followed by the screening of the movie "Wanted". And to end it of, a lucky draw session.

Should be a good time for me to catch up with old friends and make new ones as well. Industry is quite close here in Singapore and networking can be helpful.

Next up would be to catch the movie "Wanted", another movie adaptation from Frank Miller's graphic novel. Having read his "300" and "Sin City" and watched the movie adaptations of the 2 graphic novels, I am hoping "Wanted" would not disappoint as well.

Last but not the least is to attend the Singapore Toy & Comic Convention held at suntec city over the weekends. I guess I never grew out of the kid in me and having read that Bandai will be there, lets hope I get to complete all the little task to redeem the prize from their booth.

And to end off, here is a video of May'n, the voice artist for the character Sheryl Norm from the Macross Frontier series. Not a music critic but to this anime fan, she does sound good to me live.

Cheers,
Kenneth :)

"Dude, you didn't press the button hard enough... "

2008-06-23T16:26:00.009+08:00

Its been a busy week(last week) and what better way to relax and unwind than to meet up with friends to chill and to catch a movie.

Met up with Elliott and Weiming after my brain draining FYP meeting at Marina on friday for dinner at Hans before chilling out at Gloria Jean's for coffee where Janet came over to join us.

Some how we were quite amused by this "dessert" :D

And of course, nothing like a nice cup of hot chocolate to end the day off.

Went out on saturday evening with Kathleen and Jun Yuan for dinner and to collect my shirt from the tailors. Than it was off to shop for Cheryl's present and some window shopping. Also managed to get a new pair of shoes since its the GSS.

Dinner @ Soup Spoon where I had Pumpkin soup and chicken sandwich.

My first pair of Bettlebug shoes. Nothing very fantastic but its a good start ;)

All ready for my FYP Final Presentation and Job Interview now.

Sunday was spent at Plaza Singapura to settle some starhub mobile stuff. Managed to get my plan changed to the student plan which means unlimited SMS and free subscription for the next 6 months with the other usual free stuff. Also managed to get a new phone, the N82. A bigger screen and WiFi means surfing on the go for me.

Now to figure out how to bring this for my reservist. After switching over to the N73 and now this, using my old SE phone is kinda irritating. :P

And last but not the least, caught the movie "Get Smart" on sunday with Charlene, Janet, Elliott, Eugene and Weiming. Not a bad movie if you are looking for one with the laughs. The dog at the end was rather cute too. Than it was off to MacDonald for dinner before heading back to conclude the weekend.

I think this will be the last time I order the Onion rings here. Its BK Onion Rings or nothing.

Cheers,
Kenneth =]

Food, Food and More Jogging...

2008-06-18T22:24:00.008+08:00

Phew, its been a busy past few days for me as the friday deadline draws near. Thankfully I more or less know what to get my FYP work done. Not so thankful is that setting up a PHP server can be quite a pain especially since I want to do it in windows.

Met up with Samantha(good to see you again :D) in the morning to visit PLMC for their youth service. Must say alot different from what I am used to but its a good eye opener. Sermon was easy to understand but straight to the point.

Than its off to have lunch with Derick, Adrian, Nat, Daniel and Tiffany at this jap food place all the way in the west.

The place we had our sashimi

Its fresh and you can actually choose your sashimi from the chiller and they will prepare it for you.

Funky Jap Ice-Cream

Monday was spent at the airport for FYP group meeting. And there I finally got the chance to try the Feast of Fury meal. Although I must say its abit disappointing. Guess its still BK onion rings for me.

Not much Fury though...

It was cheese cake day for tuesday and today as I helped myself and my mother to make space in the fridge filled with cheese cake from Secret Recipe.

Raspberry cheese cake

Chocolate classic cheese cake

And if thats not bad enough, I decided to make up for my failed attempt to find Ramly burger while I was in malaysia by stopping at the nearby pasar malam to get it.

Nothing like a well done Ramly burger to make your day :D

But of course with so much intake, there must be output. So I decided to put my birthday present from my Cousin to use.

I heard of dry fit clothes but dry fit socks? Well they feel funny at first but after 10km with it, it feels great.

Well thats about it from me.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Cameron Highlands

2008-06-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

Finally sorted out my pictures from the my holiday & church camp over in malaysia over the week and while I could type out what happened, I guess pictures would tell a better story.

A trip to cameron highlands would not be complete without a trip to the BOH Tea plantation.

Heaven for Tea lovers :D

A trip to one of the many vegetable farms. Maybe its just me but the vege there seems greener.

I wonder if anyone actually tried to be funny with the bees. Than again after reading this, one would think twice.

I think I had too much tea or something to even think of doing something like this.

The rose centre, where most of my flower pictures come from.

Another place not to be missed is the strawberry farm.

An interesting way to save space I would say :D

Scones and Tea at Bala's

2008-06-15T22:15:00.001+08:00

Another place not to be missed if you are the person who likes scones is this place called Bala's.

Welcome to Bala's!

Where the gardens are one of the nicer ones you can find in the whole cameron highlands.

Explanation for this picture : I can't pluck and bring back the flowers so the best thing I can do is take a picture with it. I know these flowers are nothing fantastic but considering that I had a scratch across my face when I was young by these(I can still remember the pain), climbing up to get hold of these meant something.

Tea time in a beautiful garden setting. Just adds to the whole experience.

Tea and light fluffy scones, what more could one ask for!

Butter, cream and jam. Looks like more rounds to jog to burn those off.

The aftermath of some very hungry(and not to mention scone lovers) people.

Flowers

2008-06-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

One thing about the clean cool fresh climate is that you get very nice pretty flowers. Too bad you cannot bring them across the customs. So the best way is to take pictures of them.

Took many shots and these are some of the nicer ones(still learning how to use the micro function so not all came out nice).

Stopping Over At Malacca

2008-06-15T22:06:00.005+08:00

Stopped over at Malacca for one night to break the journey back from Cameron Highlands. It was a good chance to catch up on my sleep, do a bit of shopping and take more photos.

A view of new and old.

Some of the tombstones from the past.

Even he was not spared by vandals.

One of the old churches which are still in use up till today. The inside is really old school and nice but no photos allowed.

Just another day on the busy road leading to the town area.

Tiger Beer on a saturday morning anyone? (haha ok its not beer but ice lemon tea)

Sis came out with the idea of this "emo" shot(she took one too).
"Somewhere far away someone is thinking of you..."

And so that sums up my holiday over the week. Had lots of fun even though it was tiring being in the camp committee. Gonna try to catch up on my sleep while rushing for another deadline on friday. Its the final lap for my fyp and its time to give it my all.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

*Of cos I will always make time for movies and chill out sessions so dun forget to invite me :D*

"Overhauling My Lungs"

2008-06-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

"Running" by Evermore

A friend introduced me to this song quite some time ago but somehow I never did find the time to listen to it until now. Different people would find a different meaning to the song so I would leave that in the open.

Well I am back from Malaysia after spending a good 6 days at Cameron Highlands and Malacca. Pictures will be up once I find the time to sort them out. But more importantly, as my mother puts it, it was a good time to overhaul everyone's lungs with the nice clean, cool and fresh mountain air.

Time to catch some shut eye as its also been quite a draining week for me.

Nights,
Kenneth.

Hello From The Highlands...

2008-06-10T18:04:00.003+08:00

Ok if you do not know, I am over at Cameron Highlands in Malaysia now. Internet is limited here so I will just do a quick picture post.

I miss A&W in singapore so everyone waited 30 mins for it to open.

The view from the hotel is quite nice.

Hehe once of those times I can feel like a kid again.

Will try to post more when I got the free time as I will be going for a country side tour tomorrow so hopefully I can get good pictures. Will be back on saturday night so please dun sms me until than. Or rather if you dun get a reply its because I am still not back in SG.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift, that's why it is called present.

2008-06-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

Taking a break from my last minute packing and some other stuff I need to prepare for camp tomorrow so heres a quick update to what I have been busy with over the weekend.

"Get ready to feel the thunda!"

Went to catch Kung Fu Panda on friday with Janet, Charlene, Elliott and Eugene at GV Marina. In summary without giving away too much of the plot, I guess there were many lessons one can learn from the show like not judging a book by its cover, believing in yourself and the willingness to want to change. While these are themes that have been covered by many other movies, what makes this one enjoyable is the animation style coupled with the good voice acting and the moments where you can laugh together with the rest of the cinema. Recommended if you need a good laugh.

Then it was off to dinner and some drinks at Harry's where I got my first shot of the B52. I knew that it was meant to be downed in one go but I never expected the after effects to be that quick. Guess you could say I was "Bombed" by the B52.

Elliott and Janet taking turns to be the camera man & woman. And of course I do appreciate the effort to come as lolitas. =]

Saturday and Sunday were both busy hectic day with lots of things to do and lots of running around. From Reon's and Rossy's wedding service to the dinner at orchard hotel all in one go to settling all the last minute stuff for the camp next week. Think I just might have more sleep at the camp as compared to the last 2 days.

And last but not least, a big THANK YOU for all the presents. Looks like another part of operation makeover is done.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

I'm just a prisoner of love

2008-06-06T11:46:00.005+08:00

"Prisoner of Love" by Utada Hikaru

Yup the music video for Hikki's single "Prisoner of Love" is out. Nothing as fancy as her other music videos like "Passion" or "Sakura Drops" but yet still interesting enough as it has some tie ins with her U3 Blog.

On the blog, there are mentions of the orange like fruit "Mikan" which she is seen eating in the video and not forgetting the drawings of a super hero "Super-Kuman" which is based on Kuma Chang, her stuffed bear.

Add to the fact that the song has been chosen as the theme song for the Japanese drama "Last Friends", seems like Hikki is really moving up with her career.

Anyway just finish packing(well sort of) for my trip to Malaysia next week. Seems like after packing, all I have left is shirts to wear over the weekend. Think its time to go shopping for a few more tee shirts(collar and non collar) and with the GSS around I think this might be a good time.

My trusty England long sleeve jersey that also act as a pull over together with the rest of my clothes.

Mum made my favourite apple "cake" dessert thingy. Yeah I never caught the name of it but its good stuff. A little moral booster as I rush my fyp stuff so that I can relax over the next week.

Cheers,
Kenneth =]

"They weren't you, honey."

2008-06-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

Tuesday was spent slacking around town area with Elliott and Leanna after having waffles since its tuesday at Plaza Sing. There I learnt that for 20 cents more, I can get a fruit upgrade to my waffle. Would have blogged about lunch also but the service was so bad, I dun wanna even talk about it.

Nothing beats a new waffle with cookies and cream ice-cream to make my day.

Than it was off to AMK hub in the evening to catch Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skull with Daniel and Derick.

Its been such a long time since they did an Indy show and while the ending was a little bit disappointing compared to the other 3 shows, overall its a must see for any Indy fan. After all, Indy is still the wack first talk later Indiana Jones.

Just as Indy has aged, so does Marion. Good to see Karen Allen back in her character from Raiders of the Lost Ark.

Rendezvous @ Straits Cafe

2008-06-04T23:23:00.002+08:00

Dinner today was at Straits Cafe @ Hotel Rendezvous for the usual Family Buffet. Well since its about food, I will let the pictures do the talking.

Decided to be funny and did a little east meets west for my starters.

They did not have a large range of jap food but it wasn't disappointing.

CrayFish was one of the rare items you find at non high class buffets. Well at least so far for all the other buffets I been to.

Their laksa is suppose to be good and I could not resist the temptation to get a bowl myself. I am no food critic but I can say this is good laksa.

My first raid to the dessert section.

Cannot really figure this one out, its like cheese custard or something.

Durian paste dessert.

My mother's plate of fruits. Took this shot cos I thought the colour combination was quite nice.

No idea what this is but thought it was cute so just snap away.

And of cos, no buffet is complete for me without raiding the ice cream section. Chocolate chip ice-cream with chocolate rice.

Well thats about it for me, gonna get some shut eye as the flu medicine is taking effect on me.

Nights,
Kenneth.

100 caps and the Captain's Armband...

2008-06-01T16:47:00.001+08:00

"Capello hands Beckham back captain's armband" and "Beckham back as England skipper" are some of the headlines in soccer websites as England coach gives the captain's armband back to David Beckham.

Of course I can hear some people moaning away with disapproval of the player just as how they did when Beckham got dropped from the England squad and the Real Madrid squad.

But in the end he did silenced his critics and bounced back better than before. And now just after been given an award by Sir Bobby Charlton before Wednesday's home clash with the USA after clocking up 100 caps for his country, he wears the captian's armband again.

While I do not know if the armband is given to him with any other political motivation, I do know that at the age of 33, he is still going strong and deadly with set pieces as seen in the recent match against the USA.

As one fan puts it, "no one has more passion for his country than this guy... Every time he gets knocked down he comes back better than ever and does it with a level of grace you just don't see in football these days."

Just goes to show that you can never keep a good man down as long as he has the heart and the passion to continue moving forward. And to Bentley, try harder next time. Yes you may have the skills and the pace and the youth in you to maybe be worthy of the number 7 jersey, but you will never have the passion and the class to truly replace Beckham.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

*Yes I think you can tell I dun really like Bentley. Well I had nothing against him until he started playing punk and did not even show up for the under 21s. The excuse given was one which shows how much passion he has. Sheesh... no wonder he got booed when he came on pitch.*

"I know, you had it sorted out."

2008-05-31T15:20:00.001+08:00

Went to watch Prince Caspian last night with Melissa and Elliott at GV Plaza and boy was it a good show. Sure it had some stuff taken out and changed from the original story and some extra scenes and drama but over all it was worth siting in there for 2 over hours.

Considering that there are cases of script writers killing off the original storyline from the book after it gets adapted for the big screen, Prince Caspian still stood true to the main theme of the book. The idea of good versus evil, fighting on even though the odds are against you and of cos never giving up hope in what you believe is right.

I guess C.S Lewis really did it all packaging it up into one light weight story book that speaks differently to each individual with yet the same main story. I know its true for me from the first time and even now so many years later.Guess if there is one person I want to meet in heaven, it would have to be him.

And yes I know many people(mainly females) have commented that Ben Barnes is the main attraction for the show but if you ask me I think its mice that did the trick. ;)

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Thanks Sis & Jun Yuan

2008-05-30T11:05:00.003+08:00

Went out with my Sister and Jun Yuan yesterday to city hall area where they got me my advance and belated birthday present.

Seeing how limited my formal wear is, they decided to get me a long sleeve shirt for my birthday. But not just any shirt you can get off the rack but a tailor made one(and so as my sister explains, I cannot afford to put on too much weight as its made to fit). And being my first time, I felt like a total noob there.

But having a sister in the media line and Jun Yuan who has a good sense of style, picking out the material and cutting was a breeze. Also had the tailor explain to me the type of collar for my shirt and what colour and type of tie will go with it. Well better start learning now I guess.

The material for my new shirt. Something interview safe. Advance cos it was paid for and belated cos it will only be ready in 2 weeks.

Next it was off to Raffles City to have dinner at The Soup Spoon. My first time there and it took me sometime to decide what to eat.

Decided to try the Beef Goulash in the end for my soup.

Smoked Salmon was my choice of sandwich.

Plus a cup of Ice Lemon Tea and everything cost me $10.10 which is not bad considering I was pretty full after finishing everything and for the fact its in the city area. Now I know why its always crowded.

Today should be good as I am finally going to catch Prince Caspian after reading all the positive reviews on it at GV Plaza. Hehe, love this $8 weekend ticket promo from Safra.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Memories in Photographs...

2008-05-29T10:23:00.003+08:00

"Photograph" By Nickelback

This song came to mind as I was thinking of the photos I took over the last few days. Usually I would just sort them out and store them in my hard disk. But as I stumbled onto the sgcafe forums and I see how the cosplay community reacted to their photos, it made me also want to share those I took there.

After all, its not about how well the photos turned out or how nice the cosplayer's costumes are but rather that these are memories meant to be shared and one good way is in photos. After all, one can never put a price to memories that can be shared.

And on side note, it seems that Elliott got one back at me so its back to an even score. Well there is always next time and the battle continues :D

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Toasting Your Hard Drives...

2008-05-28T20:03:00.005+08:00

I know I am suppose to take a break from hardware and such but this is just too tempting and the geek in me itching to get my hands on it.

Presenting the hard disk "toaster" for all your bare hard disk lying around the place.

With USB 2.0 or eSata for high speed data transfer

And if you wondered why its nicknamed a "toaster", this is why.

Official word from the Distro is that it has reached Singapore. Of cos as for the terms and conditions for the warranty, "High tech toaster, warranty dont include faulty units due to attempt to toast bread." Haha, I wonder if anyone will actually wanna toast bread with it.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Edit : oh darn, there is no black colour to suit my whole pc setup it seems, only white. Oh well gotta look around for another one since I dun like the thermaltake version.

Of Lolitas, Super Dollfies and Wantons...

2008-05-27T09:26:00.002+08:00

Its been an eventful last 2 days for me with lots of things to do and many many photos to take. Most of which has been sorted out and saved properly for future usage if need be.

Sunday started with Baptism service in church and since I had access to the D70, what better way to get all warmed up with some shots of the whole Baptism Service. More shots can be found on facebook.

This is the picture of the Baptism pool used in my church.

Next off was to have lunch at central with Daniel, Derick, Amos, Nat, YongHan and WeeFoong at Waraku. Took a shot of my sushi and soba meal but over exposed the shot so I think I will leave that one out.

Next off was to attend the Street Festival 2008 held at Suntec. Some of the guys followed me there to take a look at the cosplay stuff while my trigger happy finger started snapping away.

Other than cosplay, there were bands playing JRock as well.

Charlene came down later on and spent quite a bit explaining to me about this whole lolita culture and abit on these expensive dolls called Super Dollfies. While I still dun see myself cosplaying and dressing up with the whole lolita culture, thanks to her I do have a better appreciation for it. It sure is not cheap and takes a lot of effort and passion. Guess it should make me wanna put more effort into making sure I get good shots.

Not your average barbie dolls, these are expensive stuff.

Elliott, Janet and WeiMing joined us later for another round of photo taking. With the 2 girls taking pictures with me being the personal photographer and Ming looking like he is not going to get dragged into anything, guess what happened to Elliott?

Another shot for keeps :D

Monday was spent at home tidying up the pictures and buying bubble tea for my sister(and one for myself as well) after going down to Hougang central to pass my friend something.

Than it was off for the Media RTTP. Its good to see old faces once again to do abit of catching up and of cos see what they are have been doing for the past year and for the year to come.

I thought this was an interesting idea to introduce the people involved.

Left early to meet up with Derick, Jim, Lincoln, WeeFoong and Benny for dinner at Shokudo. Decided to be funny and try out the carbonara with wanton.

Interestingly enough, it did not turn out as bad as expected.

To end of the day, we headed over to TCC for drinks and to do some catching up before heading home.

I expect the following week to continue to be this busy with FYP going into high gear and other stuff to settle. Really looking forward to a break when I get a chance.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Rule 1: Don't Cross The Streams...

2008-05-26T12:56:00.003+08:00

Abit wols I know but its another reason to buy a new console this year I guess. Still got lots of stuff to clear so photo sorting and archiving gonna have to wait until later. In the mean time, I posted a bit on my facebook so you can take a look at them over there.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

The worst is over now And we can breathe again...

2008-05-25T11:59:00.000+08:00

"Broken" by Seether Featuring Amy Lee

I know I posted this song way way back before but thought I just post it again after hearing it just now. Can't make up my mind which version is better though, with or without Amy Lee. Just like how I cant decide still if its a happy ending song or a sad one. Well thats best left to the music experts I guess since its not my field(Ask me which graphic card is better and I can help you with that though).

Anyway feeling very tired after 1 whole day of events and photo taking. But I had lots of fun clicking away. From the Baptism service in the morning to the SG Street Festival in the afternoon till the evening.

Took lots of shots and will try to touch them up tomorrow afternoon or something. Going down to the media RTTP tomorrow before meeting up with old friends for dinner at city link mall. Seems like more japanses food coming up for me.

Ok thats about it form me today, super tired liaos so its off to dreamland.

Nights,
Kenneth.

I need a new sms ringtone...

2008-05-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

Quick update for the last 2 days.

Went to sim lim square on friday to meet my fellow hardware crazy friend for our long overdued walk walk. Its been a long time since I did something like this and it feels great to be back there. Good thing the usual salesman still recognize me. Even had curry puff to eat. hehe.

Than its off to taka for dinner and off to listen to Cats in the Cradle at Indochine and to chill out. My first time there and other than the warmer than usual weather, I enjoyed myself there. Good music and good company does wonders.

Saturday was spent at EH for Timothy Trial and having lunch with the media people and listening to stories about the weirdest food each of them has tasted before. Been a while since I had lunch in the area and I do miss the good food there.

And to end my saturday, I went out with my sister and Jun Yuan for dinner and to do some shopping. Dinner was korean food and the shopping has put a hole in my wallet. Got myself 2 tee shirts and one shirt. Looks like operation makeover has started.

My dinner, spicy sliced chicken.

I still never understood why they gave us 3 forks for 1 cookie.

Well I guess everything was good the past 2 days except that I still have not found a new sms ringtone and have set it to the normal nokia one which I am still trying to get used to. So my apologies if I somehow send late smses.

Ok time to get more shuteye, tomorrow looks like a busy day for me.

Nights,
Kenneth.

Everything Will Even Out...

2008-05-22T05:49:00.003+08:00

What a match it has been. One of the most drama and yet its really nice to see Giggs doing the final blow and the supposed zero becoming the hero in Van Der Sar saving the final penalty.

Also had fun watching it with Jun Yuan and Elliott with my Dad joining us for the 2nd half.

And this is for Sebastian. Yeah I know I am a Newcastle fan but between the 2 teams, its a no brainer. Btw this jersey was bought for me by Jim from Manchester.

Well in the end, everything eventually evened out. What a nail biting 120 minutes plus the penalty shoot out it has been.

Ok time to catch some shuteyes.

Nights,
Kenneth.

Can't live, can't breath with no air

2008-05-21T10:03:00.000+08:00

"No Air" by Jordin Sparks & Chris Brown

Original Music Video

Ok ok so I am wols I admit. But the minute I heard this song on MTV the minute I got hooked to it. And yes I did not know she won the last AI. But always better late then never. Another potential jogging mp3 additional to my playlist for my nano.

And talking about no air and being in deep waters reminds me of my rescue diver course experience. I was assigned to be the rescue team for the final test and it was kinda easy consider the victims were kinda cooperative with the whole process.

During debrief I was told that I had it easy. In the event of a real situation, where it would be more chaotic and time is a factor with panic all around, would I still be able to maintain my clam state of mind and go through the whole process properly. Food for thought I guess.

And in other news, seems like both Indiana Jones and Price Caspian seems to be getting good reviews all over the place. Looks like more motivation for me to clear up my upcoming deadlines so I got the time to watch these movies. And from the looks of my FYP development, I think its gonna be an interesting month of work and play.

And last but not least, must thanks to my sister who is at Club Med for a press trip for the chocolate bar. It was yummy.

Ok gotta go do my work liaos. Can't wait for tonight's champion league match.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

夢見てたのはどこまで？

2008-05-20T11:25:00.000+08:00

"Be My Last" by Utada Hikaru

I always felt this song has a certain uncertainty and haunting to it. And the music video is one that echoes my feelings about it. Never the less its a nice song and one that is in my playlist.

Couldn't sleep properly at all last night. I still remember the main points of my dream last night and the piercing effect when the main point drove home. Dreams, just my very active mind(after reading a book)or something more? Well thats one more question for me to ask my Maker I guess.

Ok gotta go get ready to go out of the house. Gonna help with the packing of medical supplies for Myanmar. Wonder if its gonna be like how we used to do it in I-Guides when we pack goodie bags.

But not before I forget to thank Leanna for the nice chocolate brownie. Thanks for being the voice of reason to me when I need it.

Updated:

Back home. Seems like some of the supplies still needs to be sorted out. So most prob tmr afternoon will head back there to help pack again. But its ok I guess, its always good to get out of the house and I did get my bank stuff settled.

Now to find that chocolate bar my sister bought for me... =P

Cheers,
Kenneth.

"Escape The Daily Grind"

2008-05-19T11:22:00.004+08:00

And so another week is over for me. A rather stressful one for me as well considering I rushed out my fyp prototype in a few days, had supervisor meeting, had my first fyp milestone assessment and of course saturday morning classes that are just the go to school, sign attendance and go home type.

And since Monday(today) is a public holiday, might as well go out on sunday and relax and distress myself.

Tried my hand at parking again at the side of the building so while the car is not really in the center of the lot, I guess its an improvement that I am in the lot now. (btw if you are wondering why it looks like I "ate" into the lot behind me, well after a certain time, no one really cares about parking within your space and we all take judgement from the front car)

Went out with family for lunch at Raffles City as my sister had food vouchers. Then it was off to Robinson's where my sister identified funky kitchen tools to me. Haha I did not even know that there are many types of whisk(hope I got the spelling right) for beating eggs. Next time I know which one to get for my kitchen.

Jun Yuan came to join us for a while before I went off to meet up with the rest for dinner at some Billy Bombers spin off at Cineleisure. Appetite is better and I finished my meal but forgot to take a picture of it. Well there will always be next times.

The last stop of the day was Gloria Jeans. Here is where all the fun started...

Gloria Jeans Coffee : Escape The Daily Grind

Always take a picture with the pretty girls... joking... grew out of that liaos. Now its always take pictures with your friends.

Wanted to take a picture for display photo and here you have a rare moment of Kenneth trying to be funny... ok lah at least I tried.

Another one of those Kenneth taking a picture shots.

Group shot time~!

And all these are not enough, my sister and Jun Yuan came to join the group and more crazy fun carried on.

A little something we did for Elliott... =P

Ok I think the MRT Station is that way... or was it the other way... The after effects of too much caffeine and fun...

Haha either way it was a fun sunday. A new week dawns and I wonder what it will bring. But my toe is still not fully recovered yet... darn...

Cheers,
Kenneth.

There might be more than you can see...

2008-05-18T08:15:00.004+08:00

"Its Not My Time" by 3 Doors Down

The latest single from their soon to be released self titled album. Makes one wonder if you knew the future would you have done anything to try and change it?

Anyway I like the way the video is done. The band on the roof where everything started looking down at the guy who does acrobatic maneuvers known as parkour or freerunning to get to the spot where the accident would have happened just in time. And it ends off with the band again overlooking from above the spot where the accident would have happened.

Those 4~5 minutes made the difference to the lives of the lady and the child and maybe even to the guy. Interesting concept I must say.

Well its another week coming to an end and another week ahead. Movement for me is back to normal but I think a few more days of rest will be good to let my toe heal up. Can't wait to get into my jogging shoes again and start my usual rounds around the park.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

To turn and run when all I needed was the truth...

2008-05-17T07:45:00.000+08:00

"Over My Head (Cable Car)" by The Fray.

Saturday morning classes. I never liked them and still dun like them. And today's lesson seem such a formality. Go there, sign the attendance and wait for the lecture to end.

I hope that things will work out. Really dun wanna to be the one who has to go "told you so" when things dun work out. Dun want to see things start falling apart and finally having to torch it down so that everything can start from scratch. Time is something that dun wait for people and dragging it on is not going to help. But enough of that. Dun need to bore you with my FYP and my life so early in the morning.

Can't wait to get home and continue my sleep. Been sleeping late these days due to my stuff and all. Gonna need my sleep as there is a meeting in the evening with me helping out with the booklet as with the last time.

Hopefully can catch the FA Cup Match later at night. Rather interesting to see how the underdog club plays out. Might end up as another BPL club killer match. After all the ball is round and anything can happen.

Ok time to rush off. Nice to have my dad to send me to school. Hehe..

Cheers,
Kenneth.

And I got my heart set on what happens next..

2008-05-16T10:30:00.000+08:00

"This Is Home" by Switchfoot

Well trust Kenneth to find stuff like that. Hehe... Yup this is the new song from Switchfoot for the upcoming movie The Chronicles of Narnia : Prince Caspian. And I would say Switchfoot captured the main idea it very nicely. Well I wun give away too much of the story having read the book but if you understood the meaning behind the story, you will appreciate the song even more.

I do have a friend who did ask why I read the book before the movie, well to tell you the truth, I never knew about the whole set of books until late one evening while on the way back to camp after going for my usual nights out, I spotted one bus with promo pictures for the first movie. And what struck me most was that the author was C.S.Lewis.

Yup I was quite surprised as I never really knew he wrote non thick huge bible guides, books on cheam subjects with titles I cannot even pronounce and what nots. I mean he was not one that would write fantasy stories, well at least not to me. And so on the next nights out, I headed to Borders and got me the whole set.

Here is my set, looking like its been through abit. Well it did considering I brought it up with me to thailand during one of my overseas exercise. 2 books fits nicely into the one side pocket of the number 4 uniform.

So to answer my friend, I did read the story way way back and I decided to read it again to refresh my memory. Of course I expect the movie to have abit of changes but hey, movies are movies and books are books.

Although I must say I was rather tempted to go get the premiere tickets when I first heard about it being open to the public on good old hardwarezone forums.

Quoted From " The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian" Thread

Walt Disney Studios Motion Pictures Singapore, will host the biggest premiere event ever in Singapore, for the upcoming blockbuster “The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian”.
Set for the Vesak Day on May 19th, the movie will premiere simultaneously for the first time across the various key cinema halls (Cathay, Eng Wah, Golden Village, Shaw) within the town locations, with an expected audience turnout of 3,600.
To top it off, consumers can be part of this commemorative event as the tickets to the premiere will be made available to the public.
In addition to the first of its kind fan experience, each ticket will be bundled in an exquisite Collector’s Edition folio, which contains a call-to-arms letter (by Prince Caspian), a disc of featurettes, a special card skin sticker, and an A3 poster, retailing at $19.90 per set. Only a limited quantity of 3,000 sets will be produced in Singapore and with each set duly serialized.
Consumers can look out for the sale booth from 2nd to 4th May and from 9th to 11th May, at the following cinema locations:

The Cathay Cineplex
Cineleisure Orchard
Eng Wah Suntec
GV Grand, Great World City
GV, Marina Square
Shaw, Bugis Junction
Shaw Lido, Shaw Centre

The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian will open in Singapore theaters on May 29, 2008.

But in the end I decided to wait for all my friends to watch it together having already missed out watching the first one with them due to me having the chance to watch it at a special screening back then.(ok so maybe things do even out. After all I also got to watch a few more special screenings last time, the oldest I think being Air Force One.) Plus I got some fyp work to clear as per the work schedule set out so I guess I can wait.

Well at least I got these cards from the screening of the first movie. Really impressed with the team that did it considering the time frame they had to come out with something like that. And even more so when I got the chance to visit their office and finally given a chance to work with them later on.

Well I would like to go on and on regarding the story but I guess I will stop here. Until then...

Cheers,
Kenneth.

You do it because you're driven...

2008-05-16T01:26:00.002+08:00

Well it sure has been one full long day for me. Rushing off to school to get ready for my FYP Prototype Demonstration, collecting my long awaited new toy, meeting up with a good friend and classmate Benjamin to conquer botak jones, watching Speed Racer with Derick, Nat, Aaron and Daniel and finally saying good bye to my new toy.

All I can say is thanks to my friends who caught the premiere of it for warning me about the colours. Took awhile to get used to the colours used but once thats in, the movie was one roller coaster ride. Truly one worth a weekend movie ticket price.

And if there is one thing I can take home from the show, its these lines -

Speed: Racing hasn't changed, and it never will.
Racer X: It doesn't matter if racing never changes. What matters is if we let racing change us. Every one of us has to find a reason to do this. You don't climb into a T-180 to be a driver. You do it because you're driven.

It reminds me that there will be times when giving it my all still does not seem enough. But as long as I know why I continue to try my best and not let the situation discourage me, I can carry on. As long as there is the right conviction, the rest will fall into place.

And to end the day, we went over to the usual japanese eating place over at cuppage to have dinner/supper.

Just some of the pictures I manage to take before everyone starting attacking.

Nights,
Kenneth.

Kenneth 1, Botak Jones 1

2008-05-15T17:15:00.000+08:00

Phew, back from my FYP Prototype Demonstration. Things are still a little shaky on the whole but as I continue to gain back my confidence, I believe everything will pull through. And the interesting thing was that I knew what my lecturer meant by sometimes you gotta give up everything and start again. Sure it sounds tough and disappointing but sometimes its the way to do it right.

I know it will be hard after all the hard work gone that has gone in the past weeks but if its heading in the wrong direction, better to turn back now then continue. And I am glad I took that advise. I understand the nature of my fyp now and I am glad that at this stage I am still on the right path having put aside what I wanted to do in the first place.

It was hard but better to have realised my mistake early then when its too late. Well crunch month is coming and I am looking forward to it.

Anyway it was also good to meet up with my classmate for lunch. Its been a while since I seen him due to us being in a different project group. In the end we went to the Ang Mo Kio Botak Jones outlet.

Well I went ahead and ordered this with faith that my appetite is back.

Mustard and Steak Sauce... ok lah not bad.

And I did not let it own me this time roung. And yes I did leave abit of vege behind but I did finish the tomatoes and so on.

Well in usual cases I would be very happy to get my hands on this. Got it at a cheaper price compared to outside and this is something I was looking forward to for a month plus.

But I guess over the weeks I learnt that somethings are worth giving up for and I guess I was too busy with hardware that I forgot about whats really important to me and I guess only when we lost it that we truly learn to appreciate it.

Decided to let it go to someone else for now. I will be back with hardware seeing how I have also helped many people on the forums. But when I do come back, I will be back with a new objective. Not to gain favor and praise but also to be there to give back what was given to me by the older people who have taught me lots over the 8 years I have been there.

And most importantly I will know how to balance out everything. Somethings just cannot replace what is truly important.

Last but not least I finally got my hands on the movie. Looking forward to watching it tomorrow as a reward for getting out the prototype for my fyp. Heard from many that its a good show and there are many things that can be learnt from it.

Ok time to get ready to go out to watch Speed Racer with my friends. Heard from those who went to the gala premiere that its good stuff. Yay for $6 tickets at The Cathay.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Gonna be your man in motion...

2008-05-15T09:22:00.000+08:00

"St. Elmo's Fire (Man in Motion)" By John Parr

Referring to my post about the song over here. Well today is the day for the first milestone in my FYP which is the prototype demonstration. As mentioned, graphic designing has never been my strong point. And I have been running away from it for a long time.

And this time while it is not truly graphic design in its true sense, there are enough of it to make me worry. Font type, size and colour, background contrast and even ensuring that font placement and colours do match are just some of the worries I have.

Well I guess it was never about programming as can be seen by how fast I can get something up and running. Looks like I will be spending more time learning graphics programs and theories more than researching the codes for it.

Sounds like a daunting task for Kenneth yes, the old Kenneth that is. But I have grown abit more and I have grown stronger. Even if I have to sit there and do trial and error for the whole day I will. Nothing is going to stop me from doing my best for this FYP.

But of course some of you might be wondering what I am talking about. Well my part of the project is on Captcha. You know that kinda irritating question thing where you have to type in the characters in the image to prove that you are human?

Well these are some samples I am playing with. Still at the background and font colour part. And trust me, coming out with the correct backgrounds to suit the font colour is not easy for me. But I think I am slowly getting there.

Other considerations I have is to make sure the program never run out of unique character combinations which will require some maths involved(thank goodness I did not sleep through all my probabilities lectures). Not forgetting ensuring that I do not leave out those with colour difficulty and ultimately to make sure I do not irritate the user.

The plan is in motion, the gear wheels are turning and now its time to get the job done. For this is one thing I will not back off from. I can do this and I will do this. At the end, no matter what the result is, I will not be faulted for not doing my best. As with everything else I set my mind, heart and soul to do.

And before I end off to get ready for to go to school, seems like someone is gonna go off to watch movie without the rest of us again. Haha but its ok, I guess this is payback for watching the HBO exclusive for Mission Impossible 3 back then. Lols. Anyway finally going to catch Speed Racer later in the evening with friends. From the good reviews from those who have seen it, I am sure looking forward to it.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Lift your head to the sky ‘cause we will never say bye

2008-05-14T11:20:00.000+08:00

"Bye Bye" by Mariah Carey

Somehow I will always have a heart when natural disasters happen in the region. The lost of a loved one is always never easy. And to see many lost lives at one shot, one can only feel for those affected. Well if you have been reading the newspapers, I think you will know whats been happening in the world the last few days and this song goes out to all those affected in one way or another.

The only reason I will always have a place in my heart for such things is because of that fateful day when operation flying eagle was about to start. Being a HQ personal, the most action I ever get to see in my NS life is my signal set. Even in war, I will be the first to die by either arty fire or sniper shot due to my vocation. Not much of an exciting life is it.

But war, most of us will never live to see it. But when the chance came to actually take part in operations flying eagle, I did not know was it the call of an adventure or the fact that the human in me was calling out. Sure in the end they only allowed regulars to follow the engineers over to do beach fall but those 3 days we were given to think through will be something I will never forget in my life.

Calling up my insurance agent, talking to my dad and everything. For a little while the idea that anything can happen there somehow made me think alot. After all a form was needed to be signed before we could even be considered meant something. And even if nothing would happen there, I know many who came back were changed forever. The sight of death all around, even the air was so thick of it that most burnt or buried their uniform there.

I know my 2IC came back a changed man. Sure the idea of promotion was there after such an operation but was it worth it? To climb the ranks at the expense of so many deaths in some sense.

And now as I know there will be people on standby ready to fly over with to aid in the rescue effort and to help these people rebuild their lives, this song goes out to you as well.

Its usually these little things that happen in my life that brings me back to earth and helps me grow up a bit more and will continue to shape the way I value those around me.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

ひとりじゃないと　囁いてほしい　planet...

2008-05-13T09:11:00.001+08:00

"Diamond Crevasse" by Sheryl Nome

神様に恋をしてた頃は　
こんな別れが来るとは思ってなかったよ
もう二度と触れられないなら　
せめて最後に　もう一度抱きしめて欲しかったよ

It’s long long good-bye…

さよなら　さよなら　何度だって
自分に　無上に　言い聞かせて
手を振るのは優しさだよね？
今　強さが欲しい

貴方に出逢い　STAR輝いて　アタシが生まれて
愛すればこそ　愛あればこそ
希望のない　奇跡を待って　どうなるの？
涙に滲む　惑星の瞬きは　gone...

忘れないよ　貴方の温もりも　
その優しさも　全て包んでくれた両手も
It’s long long good-bye...

さよなら　さよなら　愛しい人
貴方が　いたから　歩いてこれた
ひとりなんかじゃなかったよね？
今　答えが欲しい

燃える様な流星　捕まえて　火を灯して
愛していたい　愛されてたい
冷えたカラダひとつで　世界は　どうなるの？
張り続けてた　虚勢が溶けてく　long for...

どうしてなの？　涙溢れて　止められない

貴方に出逢い　STAR輝いて　アタシが生まれて
愛すればこそ　愛あればこそ
希望のない　奇跡を待って　どうなるの？
涙に滲む　惑星の瞬きは　gone...

もし生まれ変わって　また巡り会えるなら
その時もきっと　アタシを見つけ出して
もう二度と離さないで　捕まえてて
ひとりじゃないと　囁いてほしい　planet...

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A very nice appropriate song to the ending of episode 6 seeing how the storyline and characters have developed so far. Surface wise the song is your typical love ballad about 2 people who somehow never got the chance to be together.

But dive a bit deeper and it also talks about somewhere somehow there is still hope. That in the end things will still work out when the time comes. And things will then fall back into place with the challenge to be able to look out for it and not miss it again.

Looking forward to episode 7.

Well things are certainly getting busier for me. I am still rushing my prototype program for the demo this thursday. My handphone is back to normal hopefully and it looks like I will not be getting much sleep this week if I do not solve the algorithm problem. Anyone looking to meet up and chill over the weekend? Think I would need that once I survive the demo.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

One long Post...

2008-05-12T10:18:00.005+08:00

Have you ever wondered who invented Mother's day? Well my sister says it's a gift card company that did it. I have no idea if the original intention was good but when there is money to be made, one can only wonder.

Anyway while my family never really quite make it a big occasion to celebrate mother's day(well not saying its wrong though, just different view points), we made it a point to spend time together. It was off to marina square for some simple tim sum lunch.

Lunch At "Bao Today", haha direct translation.

Dear Meat Bao... I mean Deer Meat Bao. Me and my sister had a few rounds of jokes on this. Wanted to take the poster which started it but somehow forgot to.

After lunch, we all took a walk to suntec. As usual my sister and mother went off window and actual shopping while me and my dad went to look at handphones. It was quite "funny" that in the end my mother's and sister's handphone went out of battery and they had to use a pay phone to arrange where to meet up. Maybe next time they should have battery chargers nearby where you can like pay abit to charge your battery.

We ended up at Killiney's Cafe before going home to rest our tired legs(esp mine after the 7.4km jog I had the day before). Somehow my appetite is getting better and I decided to reward myself by having waffles and ice-cream since I did not get to have it at the last trip to Illy's.

The evening was spent watching the final match of the BPL season. And while most of us expected it to end with goal difference separating the two teams, I guess no one would have guessed that it would end on such a note.

Watching Ryan Giggs come on for his 758th appearance and then by securing the BPL title by scoring the last ever goal for Man Utd for this BPL season was something I guess this old loyal and faithful servant deserves. And of cos after all the talk about winning on goal difference and a play off should be done instead, knowing that Chelsea drew with Bolton made it all the better.

Guess Elliott was right, Everything Will Even Out In Time.

And to complete the day on a good note, seems that getting my Orange Haro is now almost a reality. Thanks to Charlene, I now have the option of brining in that orange robot pet from japan.

Yay they have the orange colour one as well

Straight out from the Gundam 00 series

Although I still cannot decide which one to get. Seems like back here in SG, the orange ones are either not here yet or really over priced. Will get back you soon regarding this. Thanks again.

And last but not least, this is gonna be quite a busy week for me. Meeting up for Lunch at Illy's this week to try out their set lunch and use our 10% discount. Gonna catch speed racer also since everyone went to watch it without me(haha joking, thanks for the reviews though), got my meeting with my fyp supervisor, got my fyp prototype presentation and I gotta start camping for tickets for Indiana Jones.

Which reminds me, my handphone is getting abit cranky with the sms so please either call me or drop me an email or msn. I am usually online most of the time so I should get it quick. Especially when it comes to booking the tickets for Indiana Jones. Plus I will be really busy this week so do let me know early or something.

Well off to get something to snack on before I start work.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Do you know where your heart is...

2008-05-10T10:32:00.003+08:00

"Say (All I Need)" by OneRepublic

The Latest Single from One Republic. Didn't really think much of the song until I started paying attention to the lyrics and it slowly grew on me.

This is one of those songs that can speak differently to different people in different situations. It can speak of how something is really draining you out and all you want is a place to rest your head. It can also speak of knowing what your heart really wants and asking if you would trade it for something else.

And to me, it speaks of going back to basics. That all we need is just the air to breathe and a place to rest our heads. Once we get that right, we will know where our heart is and what it really wants. And at the end of it all, we can let go of all that is holding us back and move forward.

Thanks to a good friend of mine for sharing this song last night(or should I say early this morning) and for finding the music video for me. Its always heart warming to have friends like that. Friends who you do not always have to see every other day but yet always somehow you can click with. Guess we could have gone on chatting if not for her mother nagging that its 2am and me knowing that I need my rest for my jog later. Catch up with you over coffee or something I guess. Been ages since I last saw you(well if you managed to find my new blog anyway.)

Cheers,
Kenneth.

But Every Journey Must Come To An End...

2008-05-09T10:05:00.003+08:00

But Some Legends Still Live On...

A remix to the upcoming trailer of the Clone Wars which will be out later this year. I have always been a fan of the Star War series having watched all 6.

Graphics look like something out of a game but I can live with that considering the people behind it have loads and loads of experience. Well looks like a another good movie to add to the must watch list.

And before I end here, it seems that the 2nd trailer for Kungfu Panda is out over here

Cheers,
Kenneth.

運命ならばつながせて

2008-05-08T10:58:00.002+08:00

Macross Frontier OP - Triangular

This is the opening for the new Anime to celebrate the 25 years of macross. Its sung by Maaya Sakamoto who has quite a long list of other animes she has been involved with. The full original song with subs can be found here. Must really thank all these people who spend their free time doing translation for us.

Well its good to have another anime I can chase now that Gundam 00 season 1 is done. Especially since it is one of those shaped my cartoon years way back than with the first season of Macross on TV. And mecha animes have always been my favorite.

Kinda like the opening song as well and it suits the show quite well so far. Add happening 3D rendering with cool fight scenes, character development individually and with other characters and I think this is one potential benchmark for future animes to come.

Some screen shots:

Well episode 6 should be out over the next few days so I guess thats something to look forward to.

Cheers,
Kenneth ;)

Don't Worry You Are Not The Only One...

2008-05-07T09:49:00.003+08:00

"In The Dark" by DJ Tiesto

One of my favorite songs from DJ Tiesto. Kinda prefer songs while techno/dance in nature, but actually have nice lyrics that have meansing. Maybe thats why I also like some remixes of songs as well.

And talking about all this, its been a while since I been clubbing. Maybe when everything is over, crunch period of my fyp, final exams, the busy period of work and so on, when the slack period comes in, lets all go clubbing or something. I think everyone needs to wind down a bit.

I dun even mind a drink of JD(Jack Daniels) Cola or something on a weekday night just to chill out and slack abit. Heh, yeah I think I could do with that.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

this is your life, are you who you want to be...

2008-05-06T09:45:00.001+08:00

Switchfoot - This Is Your Life

One of my favorite songs I like to listen to when I go jogging for the purpose of clearing my head and to do some thinking. Although I do not know why they did not do a music video for this one.

Anyway this was one song that I sorta used to encourage someone a while back. Cannot remember if I used word for word from the lyrics or just the meaning of it. And now it has come back to encourage me it seems. Really interesting to see things go one full circle. And just as I have been encouraged by it, lets hope by all this it will encourage someone as well.

In some sense, the song asks you: this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be?

Is what we have now what we wanted it to be? Things happen, we all make mistakes and feeling guilty about it is normal. But its how we deal with them in the end that matters the most. We can let the situation continue to force us into a corner with everything to lose or we can do something about it. It would not be the way we dream it would be, but better than nothing at all.

If I talk anymore, I would be breaking my blogging discipline so I think I will again leave that to livejournal.

Anyway in light of the song, I decided that I have to push on and continue to strive for the best for my fyp. Things happen yes but I will not let that stop me from my work. Sure its taken a delay and to make up for it I decided to go and do what I do best, aim for the highest.

I decided to go with what google has been using as a benchmark. I dun know if I can hit it but knowing Kenneth, I will go all out.

The idea is to generate something that computer programs have a hard time reading so as to generate the answer to the CAPTCHA challenge.

And on a lighter note, met up with Elliott after he had to settle something and Leanna who wanted to get something to eat after her revision for dinner at tampines. Somewhere nearby for all of us.

Went to Illy's again for dinner and this time I decided to try something else. Went with what the 2 of them had the last time, Bangers and Mash while the 2 of them had something called Big Blue Joe.

This time I remembered to take a picture of the food first. Also wanna say thanks to Leanna for helping me finish up my food. Appetite is not back at 100% yet.

And of cos seeing that my appetite is not back to 100% yet, we decided to get some dessert so that I got my sugar for energy intake. And to a friend, dun worry I brushed my teeth properly last night and will be going for my jog later.

My share of dessert. They did not have waffles but they had pancakes. Think the waffle machine was down or something.

And lastly to Elliott for that "interesting" video post over at his blog, titled "Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is", this is a little something for you.

I wonder what happens when everyone gets to see all these little photos in a nice video montage at the wedding dinner(when it comes)... hehe... but dun worry, having practiced my trade at past events with good responses, I am sure it will be a hit with everyone :D

Cheers,
Kenneth ;)

A Sunday With Friends...

2008-05-05T17:25:00.000+08:00

Sunday was a full day out. Went down to Marina Square early to pick up the tickets for Iron Man. It was good to see everyone again I guess. People who went included Me, Melissa, Charlene, Weiming, Elliott, Eugene and Eelin. Leanna could not make it due to some house commitment.

After that it was dinner at cartel where again I go owned by the same thing I had the last time. Only this time there was no one to stop me from eating the yoke whole on its own. Had a good time catching up and talking about our yesteryears in TP and in I-Guides. Guess lots of things that I never knew came out.

I guess next up for movie outing would be Indianna Jones or Prince Caspian since it looks like people have speed racer invites and I don't. Oh well, not a problem though as I still got my other movie junkies to go watch that with so no worries about it.

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Heh ok this is just here as a record for me so that next time I can refer back. Seems like the way to cut a file or at least get a portion of an imaged out is just to double click first on the other area before I can go ahead with the needed operations.

Looks like my little FYP problem that seemed so big is solved. And I thought the program itself had some problems which needed me to go get the disc and reinstall it. Guess new versions have new stuff.

Phew

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As for upcoming movies, looks like its gonna be Indiana Jones first then Prince Caspian.

Release Date:22 May 2008

Release Date:29 May 2008

Cheers,
Kenneth :)

Dinner At Sakura

2008-05-03T10:36:00.003+08:00

Was suppose to let a friend know how Sakura is like after my dinner outing last night but I decided that since a picture paints a thousand words, a blog post on it would be better.

As I am one who doesn't frequent Toa Payoh much, asking me to find the place was like throwing me back into the sispec jungle back in Tekong with no map. Something told me I would not be the only one and I decided to post in the forums about meeting up at the MRT Station Control first before finding the place together.

At first it was just the usual friends I known in person who "signed up" to meet up first. Then the list grew and in the end I had 10 of them meeting up first. My friend joked that even in my "break" period, my reputation still is there and people have no problems coming forward to say hi and meeting up even though I was a complete stranger to them.

Took us a while to find the place and I was joined by more friends there. It was a good break for me from everything else. The jokes, the laughter and most importantly everyone was chit chatting around like old friends. You could sense the sincerity and openness in everyone, something I do miss from my I-Guides days.

And on to the food, well I must say its nothing great to boast about but at the price per person and for the fact its a buffet, for the simple people like us, well we got no complains.

I went straight for the sushi and sashimi section on my first trip to the food area.

While my friend decided that fried stuff is on top of his list.

Apologies to my friend who had his dessert plate taking from him so that I could take this picture.

The goodie bags. I think some of the other patrons there must have thought Acryan was having a company function there. Must suggest to the company to make smaller bags next time. Looks like the sort you would find at the Great Singapore Sale.

Lucky Draw Prizes which I won a cap. Focus was off on purpose so that the names on the cards cannot be seen easily.

Everyone satisfied with dinner and waiting for the organinser to close the gathering.

Overall it was a good outing to get a chance to meet the people on the forums and finally put a face behind the forum nick. Its also good to know that we can talk about other things than just computer hardware.

Well thats it form me today. Gonna do some self reflection about everything today. And of cos go for my jog later in the evening to compensate for all those food I had yesterday. Wanted to go for a morning jog but decided to sleep in today. Maybe catch the soccer match later in the evening or something as well.

Iron Man is up tomorrow as well and I looking forward to meet up with everyone again.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

A church, a lonely road...

2008-05-02T12:07:00.002+08:00

"Run To You" by Roxette

Was in a retro mood today so decided to listen to some Roxette. Remember that they were the first band that gave me a taste of ballads. And for someone who didn't like sappy love songs back than, something about their songs somehow got to me. I think I can still hum songs like "It must have been love" or even "Listen to your heart" to myself.

But one song that I liked alot is "Run To You". Maybe its cos on the way home from Hougang Interchange and now Hougang MRT as well, I would have to pass the church at the junction and at night it can be lonely as well. Oh well maybe ba, heh...

Anyway its a slow slow slow friday today. Just clearing up some work, checking out the usual forums for geek stuff(haha thanks hester for explaining the difference between nerd and geek, and yes geek will still rule the world one day) and looking around the net to see if lockon's haro has been released so I dun have to buy another one and paint it orange.

Well lets hope I can find one of these in Singapore. Somehow Dynames would not be completed without the pilot and his little orange roboball.

And lastly, the OST for Ironman is coming soon and I can't wait to get my hands on it.

2 tracks have been leaked out on youtube and you can get a listen here and here. Looks like everything is building up to the movie very nicely.

Well thats about it from me today. Weather is looking hot as usual. Gonna head over to SLS to find a friend first before heading over to Sunshine plaza to hunt for my Haro and Lockon figurine and lastly over to Sakura Toa Payoh to meet up with the rest for the HWC Gathering there.

And on a side note, just wanna say thanks to the Distros, Ban Leong and Corbell for kindly providing the lucky draw prizes, the goodie bags and for the dinner later. And of cos the nice people from Convergent for the attempts at trying to get my mind off things with new toys. Promise once I am feeling better, I will be back to doing reviews for you all. :)

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Damage Control...

2008-05-01T09:16:00.005+08:00

Woot its been quite a while since I went for a morning jog and it sure is a good way to start the day. Nice fresh air and the sun was not as hot as expected. Maybe I should do this more often as compared to my evening jogs.

Anyway another reason for the morning jog is also that I needed to do some damage control after what happened last night. Yup it was a night of food, food and more food. It was my mother's birthday and as with all birthdays in the family, its usually done by having a nice family and close friends gathering over food.

Enough talk about it and onto the pictures:

Soft shell crab, fried prawn and fried pregnant fish. Tempura is always a must take for me.

Sashimi, sushi, potatoes, mini sausage wrapped in bacon and chicken as appetizer.

Eel and some sort of japanese pancake. Forgot the name though.

I think I took more food but was too busy eating to remember to take photos of it. But the real reason for the need to do damage control is what is to come next.

Chocolate is something I will never miss.

Couldn't resist the chocolate topped donut thing. My sweet tooth is gonna get me in trouble during my next dental visit.

Apple Crumble or at least what is left of it.

Overall dinner at the Grand Plaza Park Hotel at City Hall was a pleasant experience. Only 2 complains was that the entrance is hard to find and the band at the bar nearby, well I think the song selections are a little "interesting".

In movie news(yeah i am becoming a movie junkie as well these days), seems like Jet Li will be back in Aug on the big silver screen again. This time he will be playing the role of a mummy.

Reminds me abit when I was young and there was all these chinese vampire shows on TV and I used to get nightmares after watching them. Hope this time I wun get any after watching this.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

I'll take up on your offer Elliott...

2008-04-30T13:21:00.002+08:00

So it seems that someone sneaked off to the premiere without telling the rest of us. Haha ok lah, knowing how much of a comic book fan you are, I forgive you. But the rest you gotta settle with them lah ;)

Anyway I finally figured out how to get the best of both worlds. Both the GV Movie Club thing together with the Safra $8 weekend movie promotion.

And from the looks of it, there are still good seatings to book at both GV Marina and GV Plaza(correct at time of posting). Hehe, dun you just love it when you understand how session cookies are stored so you can "ahem" play around and get 2 sessions to work at the same time? :D

Anyway other than the usual bad ratings from the Life section, it seems that other review websites have been giving positive feedback regarding the movie. From ACIN's resident reviewer "Moriarty" to even rotten tomatoes, this looks like something I would not want to miss.

83% for a superhero movie is kinda rare coming from that website.

And it doesn't help that the hype for the show has been going on for a long time. From the short clip on testing out the suit's flight capabilities to even the many posters that have flooded the internet.

I love this one the best of them all.

Even "Ctrl+Alt+Del" my favorite geek comic place has one dedicated for Iron Man over here Guess you can say I haven't been this excited over a movie since they announced LOTR. And I am sure the this movie hype is going to continue for me as the next few blockbusters slowly come out over the month.

Ok its almost time for my online FYP meeting so I gotta go. But before that let me leave you with a rather "interesting" Iron Man joke:

Question: Where is Iron Man from?

Answer:
Iron man is from Malaysia.
Becos his weapon is "PROTON CANON".
HE is a malaysia Super Hero

Hehe... thats all from me today. Going out for my mother's birthday dinner after I am done with my FYP stuff. Must make sure my sunday is free to catch the show. Will confirming with everyone before I go ahead and book the tickets. Or better still due to my busy schedule today, let me know if you can make it this sunday at 4:10pm. Both marina and plaza has the same timeslot so I will see which one has the best seats before I book.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Such a beautiful lie to believe in...

2008-04-30T12:05:00.003+08:00

"A Beautiful Lie" by 30 Seconds To Mars

OK another youtube video to test out the fat green pipe's problem. I think they are cleaning up the problem gateway by gateway in each area. So "new user" I guess just wait out your turn ba. :)

Anyway just caught this on MTV just now during my usual morning channel surfing. Kinda like the music video and how its done. Must be the Alaska background that caught my attention.

Video also has a deeper meaning I guess other than the usual save the earth from global warming as it was mentioned that the video will be environmentally safe and for every download of the video, it will go to an environmental charity.

To me it talks about living life and how we can sometimes end up living a lie to bluff ourselves that everything is happening as we want it to be when it is just the opposite. How we try to cover up everything with lies and more lies to cover those initial lies.

But at the end of it all, as I have learned the hard way recently, is it all worth it? I have been living a lie myself for a good 2 years, thinking that as long as I prove my point that I am still the better one after that incident which tore my heart out back in poly. Finding distractions to feed my own emptyness and inferiority complex. And each time it gets darker and darker as more lies build onto more lies.

At the end of it all, I am thankful that I never succeeded in what I set out to do. Who knows what I would have become, continuing to live out that beautiful lie I crafted for myself.

Maybe one day I will share what happened all those dark years but it sure will not be here on blog spot. Ok time to go grab lunch and check out Ironman stuff since it opens today.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

On A Cold Wednesday Morning...

2008-04-30T09:45:00.002+08:00

"Collide" by Howie Day

Was chatting with an old friend from I-Guides last night and somehow something reminded me of this song. Must be something she said about my situation but then again I dun really keep chat logs. Anyway its good to know that she is moving along with life very nicely, now a fully qualified swimming instructor. Never pictured her as one but I guess life has a funny way to working things out.

Back to me, seems like I woke up ahead of my alarm this morning due to the room becoming too cold for my liking. Somehow last night was rather warm and I decided to turn on the air-con. And silly me forgot to check the temperature and the shut off time and you have a freezing Kenneth in the morning.

Well for people who know what I usually do last time before everything happened and I decided to take a break, I was into overclocking and reviewing hardware. And usually this would be done with the air-con set to the max fan and lowest temperature. This was to aid in me pushing the hardware to its max. Won the previous powercolour overclocking competition the last time and it seems that I forgot to set the air-con back to normal temperature settings and switch on the timer.

So basically you have one cold Kenneth with a bit of a block nose now. Heh.

But on the bright side, it seems that the stupid GV booking system is back online and non too late too. Bookings for Iron man should have started and I want to get the good seats. Now to figure out how to combine both my safra discount and my GV Movie Club privileges together.

Also, seems like I got my receipt for the SBR for aug. Maybe I should have over to suntec later before my dinner appointment at Grand Park Royal Hotel to take a look at shoes.

Finally I will be running the 21km after so many years of training but missing out on it.

Well either way I am going to get a hot cup of drink before I start my day and try to figure out the safra and GV movie club thingy.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Youtube Is Working Again... Finally...

2008-04-29T20:53:00.002+08:00

This was meant to be more of a test post than a proper one but since I am posting might as well. Yeah seems like starhub finally settled the stupid Youtube problem. Hopefully it doesn't go crazy again and refuse to load the videos. What would I do without youtube...

So here goes the testing part:

About The Song:
"The title became Distance because...looking back I realised that most of the songs in the album were about interaction between people; the distance between people. Emotion, mentality. Cause, you know, we all wanna get to know each other, and shorten that distance between people we love. That distance is never gonna be nothing. I mean, there's always gonna be a bit of it left, no matter how close you get. We have to love that distance too, if you're gonna love somebody. That's why I titled it that way".

How Final Distance came about(credits from wikipedia):
"Distance" originally appeared in the Distance album, and was planned to be released as a single. However, Utada heard of a school stabbing rampage in which schoolgirl Rena Yamashita (山下玲奈) had died. Rena had previously won an essay competition; writing about how she wanted to become a singer just like Utada. Utada decided to change the song entirely, creating the song "Final Distance". The Japanese Ministry of Education decided to incorporate Hikaru Utada's ballad "Final Distance" in the high school music textbook starting spring semester 2001, which was announced on 8th of April. In order to pass the proposal, they needed 313 points. The proposal was passed with 319 points. They will be targeting high school students in their second year to test the new curriculum. According to the publisher of arts in education, the song was chosen because it is closely familiar with high school students.

*If the video refuses to load means starhub(if you are using it) is at it again.*

Either version, this will still be my favorite song from her till date, from how the original song came about to how it has evolved.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

*Now to wait for the stupid GV Booking System to come back up. Either busy, showing maintenance or responding very slowly*

Go Speed Racer Go~!

2008-04-29T09:20:00.001+08:00

Ok so someone in the house forgot to set the alarm clock properly. Was enjoying my sleep until it went off and in a quiet house, it can sound rather loud. Oh well, might as well get up and get on with my day as I got some stuff to clear anyway.

First off was to register for the upcoming Singapore Bay Run or affectionately known the Amy Half Marathon to us who have been through the national service. Yup after completing the 10km route last year, I decided that my ankle is ready to take on the 21km route. And my cousin decided to challenge me to do it in 2hours or less. He will pay for me first but if I fail that timing, I have to pay him back(which makes it kinda interesting).

Considering that I have given up on alot of things, the extra time can be used to spend on training up for this. 2 hours is not easy for a first timer but hey, no pain no gain. And with the money from the government in, its time to go shoe shopping as its about time to retire my old DS Trainer.

One option I have is to go with the latest version of the DS Trainer which is in its 13 design cycle now. Colour scheme looks rather army but hey, if it gets the job done I dun think anyone can complain.

Another option I have is to go back to adidas. Was told that recently they got a new shoe engineer and reviews have started to get better. Considering my running style and advise given to me by a local group of sg runners, I should be looking at certain models and this one caught my eye. The yellow looks striking as well.

It seems that I missed out a few movies in the june period with my previous movie schedule. So here we have the updated one:

Iron Man - 30 April 2008
Speed Racer - 8 May 2008
Indiana Jones and The Kingdom of the Crystal Skull - 22 May 2008
The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian - 29 May 2008
Kung Fu Panda - 6 June 2008
The Incredible Hulk - 12 June 2008
Get Smart - 18 June 2008
Wanted - 26 June 2008
The Dark Knight - 18 July 2008

Looks like I know where all my money is going into for the next 2 months. Lets hope Safra will extend their $8 weekend movies so that can save the $2. After all, looking at the schedule, there is at least $18 to be saved.

Found another cool looking poster for the upcoming movie "The Dark Knight". The more I see these posters, the more I wanna make sure I watch the movie. Looks like a good way to also reward myself since its just after my fyp final presentation.

And as with my blog title, I found this nice little music video for the upcoming Speed Racer movie and now its kinda stuck in my head.

Go Speed Racer Go Music Video

Heh, one of the drift scenes track kinda look like ripped out from Initial D. The stage where the you meet all the Lancers. Yup I used to spend lots of time at the arcade playing Initial D(Haha I love fast cars, but in real life I am a safe driver. Or at least I try my best to be).

Lastly it looks to be a busy week for me. Not that I got lots of work(haha hope my fyp group dun see this) but rather I have lots of stuff lined up this week.

Monday ~ Tuesday : Figure out how to create fonts for my FYP project.
Wednesday : Mother's Birthday Dinner
Thursday : Cousins all coming over for lunch
Friday : Dinner at Sakura with the people from HardwareZone and some of the Distros.
Saturday ~ Sunday : Ironman Anyone? I still got my $8 offer ;)

Cheers,
Kenneth.

* BTW its Ben and Jerry Free Cone Day today. So head over to any outlet and get your free cone. Any1 wanna jio me out for free cone?*

His Sacrifice...

2008-04-28T12:36:00.006+08:00

The thing about having only your fyp left for the entire term and also having a better computer than the one in school means I get to stay home most if not all the time. And that also means I got more time to blog, surf the net and channel surf at home.

"My Sacrifice" by Creed

Anyway yesterday's sermon is still fresh in my mind and I cant help but reflect back on it. Somehow everything the speaker said registered immediately in my mind. I felt as if he was talking to me and telling me what to do and explaining to me what I have to do. Maybe I was thinking too much but there was something that he said that somehow clicked in me. It was on Genesis 22 talking about Abraham. Will not dwell too much about it here as thats what my livejournal is for.

Anyway the song "My Sacrifice" by Creed sort of sum it up for me. Youtube is being funny again so the next best thing is Imeem. Kinda like the whole flood idea. Reminds me of the song by Jars of Clay though. Heh.

As usual, I was checking out the gundam modeling thread over at HardwareZone and I found inspiration for my next Gundam project after Crossbone(which is still sitting in its box, gonna start on that soon though).

Seems like after Dynames, somehow my passion for building gundam kits is back and the fact I need to "brush up" on my painting skills(ok lame joke sorry :P). Looks like I know what to get for myself for my coming birthday.

Decided to check out if I got the colours ready for Exia and from the looks of it, I got more than enough. Hehe... time to show off abit also to a certain someone(haha joking, let me know when u want to come over and do the painting as well).

Lastly, seems that my parents were abit worried about my lack of sleep these days and decided maybe I needed a new pillow.

And in other news(seems like I hang out too much in the movie threads), it seems that Tom Hanks is back again playing the role of Robert Langdon in the prequel to the quite a flop of a movie Da Vinci Code. This time its based on the book "Angels & Demons". A book I read back in army while I was on COS Trainee duty. The other actors to join Hanks are Ayelet Zurer, the female terrorist from Vantage Point and Obi-Wan himself, Ewan McGregor. Lets hope this one turns out better than the previous one.

Well its time for lunch so thats about it from me.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

Just A Lazy Sunday Afternoon...

2008-04-27T16:21:00.002+08:00

"Only Hope" by Switchfoot

A friend was telling me about the book titled "The Notebook" by the same guy who wrote "A Walk To Remember" seeing how I like that book so much(although I cannot remember where my copy went to). Heard it was turned into a movie and was searching youtube for one of those summary types with background music from a song to get the general idea. Well I guess this one is one of the better ones I found.

Well its another lazy sunday afternoon for me. Settled my stuff and thats it for today. One of those sundays where I just wanna stay home and do nothing. Or maybe I just wanna stay home and reflect on what the speaker said at the pulpit today. Either way I dun think I will be going out too far even if I wanted to just leave the house for a while.

Anyway things are really moving along these days. FYP is really moving nicely now that everyone is continuing to concentrate on their part leaving me quite a lot of free time to do other things. And just nice as well with May just around the corner.

A quick look at Golden Village website shows:

Iron Man - 30 April 2008
Speed Racer - 8 May 2008
Indiana Jones and The Kingdom of the Crystal Skull - 22 May 2008
The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian - 29 May 2008
Kung Fu Panda - 6 June 2008
The Dark Knight - 18 July 2008

And thats like one movie every other week. Looks like I will be telling my group that weekends are for resting and not to bother me. Time to chalk up my GV movie club points. Anyone wanna go watch please jio me.

Not to mention "Kung Fu Panda" is very near my birthday which marks a quarter of a century of living on planet earth. Since my birthday falls on a wed, I can go for the usual family dinner on that day and hang out with everyone else over the weekends to catch this show.

"The Dark Knight" will open the friday before Sebastian comes back to singapore so maybe can wait for him to get back before going out to watch that one with him and the rest since I assume he would want to see everyone again.

Well thats about it for today.
Cheers,
Kenneth :)

Moo?

2008-04-26T21:50:00.005+08:00

Was advised to cut down on the amount of sugar I take as its bad for health and teeth. Well I guess I better go for my jog tomorrow and pay more attention while I brush my teeth later. But no jogging if it rains of cos.

My sis went to the mini mart downstairs during the half time soccer break to get ice-cream with Jun Yuan and I get to have one as well.
Thanks :D

Saturday Morning Randomness...

2008-04-26T09:37:00.003+08:00

Woke up rather early today having had an early night. Have my fyp stuff to research on but decided to leave that to later and just relax the morning away.

Kingdom Hearts- Do You Know (I Go Crazy)

Managed to find back this youtube video. One of my fav game that I never thought I would actually like so much. I mean the thought of Disney and Final Fantasy was almost heresy to most of us FF fans but that soon all changed as the first game left many of us wanting more. Nice remix as well to one of my fav tracks "Do You Know" by DJ Prada G. Yup guess all that techno/dance stuff from my army days never left me. :D

Found this poster over at the forums. One of the coolest ones I seen in a while. So looking forward to watching this on the big screen. Not to mention that the DVD in the mold of "Animatrix" called "Animated BATMAN: GOTHAM KNIGHT" is coming to wet the appetite of all fans of the man in black. The trailer looks good and is a must see for all fans.

Another interesting piece of news I found was regarding the prequel to Lord of the Rings, "The Hobbit". First on the forums and later on the Newspaper. Looks like Peter Jackson did not forget about us LOTR fans. Of course that will take some time but hey I can wait. After all, so many movies coming out in the next 2 to 3 months, I think my debit card, safra card and gv card is going to have to work overtime. Ironman opens in less than a week's time and I can't hardly wait especially after Elliott posted about the latest Ironman clip over at his blog a while back.

In other non movie related news, I finally headed down to the Lock Stock & Barrel last night for a mini gathering of the Singapore Newcastle Fan Club. Met a few people and its always good to finally put a face to the forum nick.

And of cos I finally got my hands on the fan club's tee shirt.

Also seems like my cousin is back from japan and thanks to that, I got... I mean the whole family got a whole container worth of japan goodies. Hehe, Jap Anime, Jap music, Jap toys, Jap games and of cos Jap candies/sweets/chocolates. I love that country.

Manged to sneak up on Kenny to take a photo. That silly doggy still doesn't like to be taken on camera so the best time is sneak up on him while he is still sleepy. Seems like he got a hair cut again.

And so that concludes my Saturday Morning Randomness. And its back to work on my fyp.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

A Tribute To Lockon Stratos

2008-04-25T11:26:00.004+08:00

Well I finally got my paint and decided to finish up Dynames once and for all. And since I am at it, I guess its a good way to pay tribute to my favorite Gundam 00 character.

Taking apart Dynames to finish up the panel lining. Helps to make the model less plastic.

Finally got my hands on a new pot of black paint. Took me a while to hunt it down and prices did go up abit but its definitely worth it.

Dynames Assembled and waiting his weapon.

Took me a while to decide what colour scheme to use. In the end I went with the boring one considering that in real life sniper rifles are meant to be hard to spot if not it defeats the whole purpose. And you dun see sniper rifles out there in funky colour anyway. Best thing is that since its base colour is black, should I ever feel the need to adjust it, its easily done.

And lastly Dynames back where it belongs with the rest of the important stuff. Hmm think the casing needs a little cleaning again. The woes of putting the casing next to the window I guess.

Episode 23 of Season 1, Gundam 00 will always be one of my favorite as it had one of the best endings to a character for as long as I can remember watching the many gundam series.

You can actually feel for the character and his friends. Lockon in some sense was real to me and I could somehow understand his emotions and why he does certain things. I guess this is one character I will miss when season 2 of Gundam 00 comes along later this year.

If I could rewrite the sequence abit:

"What the heck am I doing?
But y'know...
If I don't get this guy...I can't take my revenge...
I can't go on without that...
I won't be able to face the world again...
Because of that...
Father...
Mother...
Amy..."

I know... Even though I've done it, it's possible nothing will change...
I can't go back anymore...

Even so...from here on, tomorrow will be...
The future Lyle will live in...
Setsuna...did you find your answer?

Hey, are you all satisfied with this kind of world...?
I hate it.
*Closes with his fingers in the shape of a gun*

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Well sometimes I do wonder if the little things I try to do to make a difference in other people's live do really make a difference. Or do they end up as a waste or energy and time. Well no matter I guess, in the end Kenneth will still be Kenneth.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

But I'm still waiting in line...

2008-04-24T23:44:00.003+08:00

"Soulmate" by Natasha Bedingfield

Thanks to Sebastian for this song. Guess I will continue to queue up in line for my turn.

In other news, I am back from watching "The Forbidden Kingdom" at The Cathay. One of those shows where you go in to be entertained. Story line is normal but what stands out is of cos the action. I mean Jackie Chan and Jet Li together is a dream come through for all those kungfu junkies out there. Overall for a weekday movie price, I have nothing against it.

Of cos with pretty actresses like Liu Yifei inside, how can anyone have anything against the show. haha joking, but I must say she does have that unique look(good thing) that caught my eye.

Ok thats it for today. Another long day tomorrow for me. Hope I got the time to head down to the LSB to hang out with the rest of the NUFCSG people. Maybe a pint or 2 of beer over some football chit chat or something.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

Outlook For The Week...

2008-04-24T09:16:00.006+08:00

Still not out of the tunnel yet but the light is getting brighter. Less arguments with myself, and emotions are more or less getting stable. Just the usual out of the blue emo moment but other than that, things are moving along nicely.

FYP meeting went well for once and hopefully its a sign of things to come. Seems like there is now a general sense of direction and I am looking forward to the actual development of the thing. Its like now I can relax abit on this and use the time to continue to pick up the pieces of my life.

One thing I like about meeting at BK is that I get to order this. Have been talking about it for some time but never got to take a picture of it so here it is. Hmm... still need to brush up on my micro shots though.

Outlook for the rest of the week looks packed. Still need to settle some stuff for my FYP which might take a while. Going out with friends this evening to chill out and relax. Might pop by Samantha's working place to pass her that snickers bar I promised if I am nearby. And of cos I need to go get my Black Paint. Can't believe all 2 bottles dried up. Lol...

Somehow within me there is this glimmer of hope that somehow someplace things will get back to normal or at least near it. Dun ask me how or why but its just that. But I guess its not meant for me to worry about anymore. Ball is no longer in my court as the saying goes.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Do it with a heart wide open...

2008-04-22T15:11:00.003+08:00

"Say" by John Mayer

Nice song I happen to catch on MTV just now. Yup its a lazy Tuesday afternoon and I decided to take a break from everything and do some channel surfing.

Lyrics are kinda simple and straight to the point. I guess I have been holding inside of me for too long and now that everything is settled and moving along it make sense. Rather than keep everything to myself and bottle it up inside, what needs to be settled should be settled so that once settled, things can move along rather than have "what ifs" and "maybes" (people who I shared to regarding my FYP woes should know what I mean).

But I guess things still went on somehow as planned with every thing falling into place. I can now look forward to the next few deadlines(haha yeah I know how to spell it as deadline and not dateline now ;p). FYP is picking up steam with the first demo prototype due in 2 weeks time. But I am confident I will also pick up the motivation to move on fine.

I guess I will not have trouble keeping my thoughts to myself during the next few fyp meetings. A job needs to be done and so be it. Regardless if people will not be happy or have a different view, better to say it than keep it inside.

Well I guess this can be applied to other things but thats another story for another time. Going out for dinner with an old friend from way way back. Hope the weather holds out. Rain can be a bit irritating sometimes.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

But to smile because it happened

2008-04-21T10:18:00.000+08:00

I woke up again to the familiar sight outside my window.
Awoken not by anything else but the sound of the vacuum cleaner.

A smile appeared as last night's dream was still fresh in my mind.
Dreams, well I really do not know if they mean anything but just an active mind.

I saw her face again and this time it was clear.
Not from afar, not a sad ending but one that is comforting.
Its been so long since I last saw her. Maybe 2 or 3 years?

It was a good reminder to me that I can move on.
Not to cry because I lost it but to smile because it happened.

Not going to rant here(ranting are for LJ),
But I think I will be looking forward to the brand new week ahead.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Being Thankful...

2008-04-20T23:18:00.001+08:00

Well its the end of another draining and tiring week. But I guess as hard as it is, I will be thankful for today.

I am thankful for the peer group sharing today in church. I am thankful for everyone's openness to each other and for the encouragement that went around for each other. And that in the end of it all, even though love is still not working out for me, it is still working in the lives of others.

I am also thankful that I decided to go ahead and have lunch with the family(yes that includes you Jun Yuan). I was so tried and worn out that going home was the best idea but I guess I made the right choice to go for lunch. Thanks to Jun Yuan for the lunch at marina cartel and for accompanying me to do some window shopping. Also for my sister who took over that job for a while and trying to cheer me up and of cos for that cup of coffee.

Also to my mother for also trying by offering to buy me a new pair of shoe to suit my usual jeans and shirt and not forgetting my dad for letting me touch the car a bit today and for knowing its not a good time to bring up the usual go for dinner but the number is never even joke.

Thankful for the usual close friends around to continue to give me the reality check that I am still human and that I should still spare a thought for myself and always there when I need them.

Thankful for Newcastle which kept another clean sheet today at Saint Jame's Park against Sunderland and of course for winning the match. I got something to cheer about for the next week.

And as hard as it seems, thankful to HIM for allowing all this to happen so that at the end of it all I will come out a stronger person. Still have no idea how or why but I believe its still for a reason.

My first time having this at cartel.

Wanted to be funny and eat it on its own but was told otherwise.

Opps was held ransom by it. Must be the chicken wing I had before...

Gloria Jeans Regular Coffee For $2.

Well its going to be another tough week for me but at least I know there will be things to look forward to.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

It’s not easy to be me...

2008-04-19T19:53:00.000+08:00

A good friend ask me to go listen to this song:

Five For Fighting - Superman (it's Not Easy)

I used to think this song is about superman with so many references made to the well known super hero in the red cape. But as I sat down to slowly listen to the lyrics I think I understood what my friend was trying to tell me.

Thanks,
Kenneth.

Don't Call Me Junior....

2008-04-19T12:44:00.000+08:00

This was a long overdued little gathering that we did plan out sometime ago but never really carried out. So the minute the idea came back again, planning to the actual thing itself was pushed quickly and boy, what a night.

Having our Friday Movie Marathons are not new and this one was motivated by the fourth installment of Indiana Jones movie that is coming right up. So being the movie junkies that we all are, we decided to watch all 3 previous installments in one go.

And of course what is everything without food. Decided to go with pizza hut this time around and got their family meal.

It seems that waiting too long for the food can get to you.

Oh man, its been too long since I had pizza hut. I think the last time was at marina last year just before everyone went off to watch music and lyrics while I went to mug for my exam paper the next day.

Side orders are always welcomed. Never go tired of garlic bread.

Elliott trying his hand at taking photos again. Thus he is not in the picture.
Missing from the shots are the Pepsi and ice cream.

First off was "Temple of Doom". The first show to ever give me nightmares as a kid way way back. And did not help that we were watching it while having dinner. When it got to the movie's dinner scene, somehow I was compelled to quickly finish up my dinner before I get affected by the movie.

Next up was "Raiders of the Lost Ark". The only one that I never had the time to watch it through properly. Special effects were quite impressive considering how old this show is. One thing interesting is that "Indy" always like to act first and think later. Everything else just think on the way. Too bad it only happens in the movies.

By the time we got started on this one, it was past 1am. But after going so far, we pressed on and we finished this one as well. Being the most recent one, I could remember most of the show but hey, a dad and son tag team always provides a few more laughs here and there.

The fourth installment will be hitting Singapore soon and from the trailers on the internet, the show looks to be promising. Armed with my Debit card and Safra card( Online booking at $8 bucks for weekendshow @ GV for the win~!), I have no doubt that I will be watching this one.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

In places no one would find...

2008-04-18T13:33:00.000+08:00

Another lazy afternoon with me chilling out to STC again. To my horror, the words scrolled across the screen during one of the videos that Starhub would be stopping STC and 30 April is the last day due to some issues.

Haiz sad sia, means only left MTV to watch. Sianz 1/2.

Anyway the video showing was one of my favorite from way way back which drew my attention to Mandy Moore.

Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You

Its been like so many years since I heard this song. Heh, I even used it in a power point presentation. For a kid going into poly, I guess I had a crush on her? haha who knows sia back than.

Mandy Moore - Cry

One of my all time favorite soundtrack songs. I mean the movie was great(ok the book was even better), the sound track was great and it has Mandy Moore inside. What more can any guy(ok lah just me) ask for?

Of cos I was told that she cannot sing life and cannot act properly(haiz break my heart into 2 twice in one day), but its ok. All my songs are recorded versions so they sound very good. The show, "A Walk To Remember" was so nice and sweet, I did not have time to pick up her bad acting. "Saved" was also good as I was looking at more of the storyline and its meaning plus when a friend goes through the trouble to get the show for you, kinda hard to dislike it.

Well lets hope her latest album will not be the last I see or hear from her.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

*Yay, youtube is working again*

I was just a boy like every other...

2008-04-17T17:44:00.000+08:00

A friend asked me to go listen to some emo songs to feel better. But nah thats not me. But I did go do my planned endless channel surfing. Finally I realised that there are so many channels on cable. And the least when it comes to music, I got MTV and STC(Sound Track Channel).

I was hooked onto STC for a while as I always liked music off movies. Than they played the God Father theme and I decided to switch over to MTV and they were showing MTV Amplified if I am not wrong.

Well I dunno if this is a emo song but its kinda cute. The MTV of it is cute, the lyrics are cute and the best part is that its from Jimmy Eat World. Have not heard from them in a long while. Love the opening of the song.

Jimmy Eat World - Always Be

And the lyrics hit me straight on. Many people have different views on it. But for me, it means to remember the happy memories and cherish them. The cute times, those interesting moments or even those awkward times left together.

Considering what happened so many years ago, for me to slowly pick myself up after everything and finally start acting this way in those circumstances. I guess I can truly say when I look back that, the lyrics hold true for me.

But its time to just move on. No one knows what the future holds but I think I would know better now. And its time to put everything to rest.

2 weeks ago I was out hunting for the action base to put Dynames on. And up till today Dynames is still posed with the action base, hand painted to make it look better, atop of my computer casing together with everything else important to me.

Cheers,
Kenneth.

Some Thoughts...

2008-04-17T12:34:00.000+08:00

*This is going to be a long post... beware...*

As usual I woke up later today. Breakfast was normal. Everything seems to be normal. Considering what happened, its kinda weird. Recovery isn't suppose to be so fast. Or is this the calm before the storm again?

One thing that has been nagging at me is that so far I haven't had the time to look at things on the macro view as its been the mirco view along. An interesting notion was raised regarding everything and I decided to give my usual planet conquering a rest and give thought to it.

"4 days too late? Or was it 4 days on time?"

Now this is very interesting. Sure most of the time people will use the ever over quoted "Whats Meant To Be Will Be" and not forgetting the also popular "Everything Happens For A Reason". And we leave it as that to comfort us and move on.

But with regards to this 4 days, I cannot but start to think even deeper. Sure I must qualify that I am no all knowing seer that can tell the future. I can only examine the past and analyse the present to deduce the cause, effects and reactions of it all. I think I will leave the future unknown for now(and forever).

I mean I could just leave it as it was meant to be and based on that I move on. I can also just take it that all that has happened within the past 2 weeks has to have reason behind it. But leaving that as it is would not be Kenneth would it...

For every action there is a driving factor behind it, and of course there will be an outcome because of that action. But it doesn't stop there, there will be a reaction to the surroundings. An example would be throwing a stone into a pound. The reason for it could be as simple as you feel like it since everyone else is doing it, the outcome is that the stone ends up at the bottom of the pound and the reaction is that ripples appear on the water surface.

Ok sure its a simple example, but yet when we think of it in terms of bigger things, the implications are so much more than just ripples on the water surface that will die off easily. But I will not provide more examples least your imagination goes wild.

Now back to the little situation that I have now. If I were to take it that it happened for a reason, and that it was suppose to be 4 days too late. What would be the driving force or cause of this action?

I mean why 4 days? Why not 5, a week later or even a month later? Although I must clarify also that 4 days is based on my initial estimate and analysis. Either way it would have happened within a certain period of less than a week. Could have been more or less but I conclude that it would have happened anyway.

The driving force for me to focus my attention on this matter which produced this outcome is simple. Something must have caught my attention to trigger off such an unusual not calculated unplanned move that forced me to alter my schedule and force me out of my shell.

The results of course is history but it did got me thinking more about myself and how I deal with things. Maybe there is something more I can improve on, something more I should pay more attention. But thats not the purpose of this post.

I am still slowly picking up the pieces to how I might have missed the warning signs and dropped into complacency. Well either way its a high price to pay that would keep me on my guard from now onwards.I do have some primary findings but until I gather more information, I will leave it as that.

The initial outcome was expected in some way. For all that I seem to be, I have eyes to see, ears to hear and a mind to think. For all that heartless stone cold machine like image I portray, I still have that organ that pumps blood to the rest of the body to keep me going.

And of cos, for me to actually do stuff out of the blue and out of my regular pattern, something else must be taking place. Of course maybe I could have done more, or I was doing it the wrong way. But again thats not why this post is here.

From the outcome, based on previous findings and understandings, things were suppose to move on like they should. Pain, Hurt and what not followed as expected. You could say been there done that and felt all that. After all the crap I been through before this, well it should be the usual routine recovery route. Ok maybe different situations requires different variants of medication, but over all its still the same.

But what seems to be out of the norm is the reaction to everything. How I anticipated everything to react turn upside down. Sure like I said, I can't tell the future if not I would buy 4D every week. But there would be some general expectations from everyone to as how it should turn out. After all I believe most of us would actually think abit before taking an action.

Sure there are risk and all that, but wouldn't there be a bit of thinking involved? Even so, the usual reactions expected did not turn out right. Things got messy and complicated that as of now, I am still rather puzzled with everything. Things dun make sense and loopholes are all over the place. This is most prob worst than losing a few important pieces in a 1000 pieces puzzle.

I spent a good time thinking through about this reaction. From something so simple to something so complicated. Is there something I seem to be missing out on? Or was there a missing link all along that I never seem to pick up on.

Either way I am glad in some way(yeah its hard to say it but its true) that all this has turned out this way. Seems like its better that it all happened now when things are still relatively small and hopefully can still be settled before things get really big.

How big and how much more damage it can do I have no idea. But somewhere deep down in me, I have this gut feeling something else is about to happen soon. Like the calm before the storm.

No one can predict(correctly) the reactions to things like that. Or at least I sure cannot but neither are we meant to used these estimated reactions to plan backwards(Rather this should be used to help us to think before we act on anything). As I spend even more time thinking, I seems to be concluding that something else happened. Its almost like something went wrong, rash decisions were made to cover up and that caused even more inconsistency like a noob hacker trying to be funny only to be found out by the policy in the Intrusion Detection Agent(sorry techie talk).

Call this a little distraction from everything but I intend to continue finding out what really happened behind the scenes. Even now I still feel there are more than meets the eye. Somehow I see myself getting implicated even more and that is something I dun enjoy.

But until I find out what really happened, or it surfaces itself, I will just leave it at that. For in my finite mind I might also be wrong. But my conclusion that this was meant to happen so that something will surface is strong. And until proven otherwise i will stick to it.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

A Walk In The Park...

2008-04-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

Just got home, had dinner and took a bathe. Yup its one of those long draining day for me. FYP meeting was draining as usual from around 5pm to about 8pm and the wait for the bus was enough to kill. Add to the fact it was cold outside and even colder inside. And not forgetting all that I been through, yeah it was the recipe for one worn out Kenneth.

I decided to drop one bus stop early than the usual one which leaves me just outside Punggol Park. Maybe its the coldness in the bus that made me do it. But either way I decided to take a detour along Punggol Park. Yeah its late around 9 or maybe later but something just made me take a short walk there.

I never did actually take note of the place as most of the time I would be doing my usual rounds there, concentrating on the distance I covered. But today I took my time to take in the surroundings.

People doing their late night jogs, couples walking or sitting down lost in their own world, a bunch of boys fishing at one corner and ever crowded bliss with voices were some of the things I took in. And the cool weather add the extra touch to make it an enjoyable walk.

Maybe I should do this more often. Just me and my own thoughts in the nice cool evening or night. I guess sometimes in the busyness of it all, we fail to slow down to just take it all in.

Well I intend to take the day off tomorrow and relax. Maybe even starting from now.

Play game until I get so sleepy I have to crawl to my bed or even fall asleep on my keyboard. Wake up the next day all late and have lunch straight. Do some endless channel surfing, chill out to some music(did I mention I bought Hikki's new CD?) on my pc or wack even more games.

Just one day away from everything else. Yeah that will be good to take my mind off things. Yeah thats what I will do...

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

Still Kenneth...

2008-04-16T09:27:00.000+08:00

Its 915am when I reached for the time. Sleep is back to normal or at least getting better. Appetite is not quite there yet but I get at least 80% of my meals into my body. There is less need for sugar rush

Life is slowly picking up back to normal. Its kind of a big contrast from when it all happened. I think the colour is returning to my face as one friend puts it. My mind is sharper and I can once again start to concentrate on my fyp. Everything seems to be back to normal and I finally got my Hikki CD. Paying with debit card is quite fun although I just need to remember not to overspend.

But yet life doesn't seem to be giving me a moment of rest. The minute I show signs of recovering, the minute more things start to appear. Maybe I pushed them all away first like a defense mechanism to allow myself to heal, blocking everything external out like how the blood will clod when there is a wound. And now that its healing, I can spend more time on these things. If I thought healing was hard enough, well its just the start of it all.

From one painful decision to another. I sure hope that what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger is true. And I hope I do not have to do something like that anymore. For people who know me for a long time should know what I value a lot in life and having to let it go is something very painful.

Its easy if things happen along the way and its the logical thing to do. But now, even logic is finding it hard to win a landslide victory and part of it asks if there is a better way. Even my heart is half hearted with the decision. Is there really no other way?

I can solve all programming assignments and what not thrown at me so far. Coming out with my usual out of the box methods to solve them if the normal way seems hopeless. But yet for something so dear to me, I feel so helpless. I can only sit there and sigh, knowing that I cannot do anything but watch it drift by.

Somehow I never knew why I kept that paper crane with me all these years. Everytime it drops I will pick it up. When it came to CNY cleaning I would gently clean it off its dust that has settled there. It would be there on my computer table where I spend most of my time at together with all the other important stuff. Like the Mood Book given to me so many Christmas ago to the cup holder from TP during my first GL camp. Or even the Gemini key chain still sits in its box on top of my casing. So many memories that were created. And now the pain is in knowing I might have to give some up.

I guess these are some of life's questions that I will never get an answer to. The question was posed to me a few days back asking if its worth mucking through the crap for. Well I would like to say yes and go muck through and get dirty for it. I did it once before and the outcome was worth it. And now I would do it again.

But the situation now has made it hard for me to do so. I could go muck through it myself but I have to be fair now. I have to think more with my mind than base all of it on my heart. The situation the last time was easy as every thing fell into place. But now it is not happening and has become so complicated I do not know why. For all the analysis skills and problem solving techniques I picked up along the way, nothing seems to work.

The more I sit down and think, the more reality seems to hit the hardest. There will be no turning back anymore. Every choice has an outcome and a reaction to it. Its all over and done and time doesn't rewind itself for anyone.

For all I can do now is hope and pray for the helpless state I am in. I am not trying to save the world here. I know I am no superman, but yet I also know there must be something I can do. For all that Kenneth is worth, this not the way I want it to turn out.

Maybe the speaker made sense last Sunday at the pulpit. Maybe I am trying to run ahead instead of letting HIM lead me on. Maybe its not time yet. Maybe there is a lesson to be learned in waiting still. Everything happens for a reason and I guess I need to trust HIM to let things turn out the right way.

I guess this is what happens once the hurt starts to heal, the pain starts to ease and I began to understand and see again what is happening around me. Guess the only thing left for me to do now is to let the wound continue to close and wait on HIM.

But at the end of it all, whether its now, later or never, I still stay at the same place, I still have the same hand phone number, I still use the same email and I am still Kenneth.

My alarm rings, I set it in case I sleep too much and forget to wake up. I have a long day in front of me. FYP meeting before meeting up with the supervisor. I still have one missing link in my system design which I need to figure out.

Life still goes on for me.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

Fellow Chopsticks...

2008-04-15T14:22:00.001+08:00

Ok I see my blog link updated on many blogs and yet I dun do that. So now I decided to do it but as you can see the list is small. Either I got your old link or I lost it when I had to reformat my HDD a while back to get ready for my fyp and clear all the junk from last term's modules.

So the next time you message me over msn, drop me a call or send an sms and realise your blog link is not there, do also let me know your blog link and I will gladly add it in. And please help me check if I got the right one as well.

After all, its my fellow chopsticks that kept me strong.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

*BTW if you are wondering why chopsticks, read my previous few post. :)*

I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall...

2008-04-15T09:52:00.000+08:00

"Learning To Breathe" With "A Walk To Remmeber"

Nice meaningful song with one of my fav movies of all times. Heh... ;)

SwitchFoot - Learning To Breathe

Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need you
This is the way that I'm

Learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never, never thought that
I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad

So this is the way that I say I need you
This is the way that I say I love you
This is the way that I say I'm yours
This is the way, this is the way

Looking Forward...

2008-04-15T09:17:00.000+08:00

Its Tuesday, I woke up and looked at the window as I always do. Something looks different. I search for the time and let out a silly smile to myself. The first number says 9 and I sink back into my pillow.

The tunnel looks like its still going on forever although The light has gotten brighter. Not enough to see the exit but enough to encourage me to move on. There was never a right decision to make in the sense that at the junction, the tunnel split into as many as 2,3 or even 5. Taking a step of faith forward I just moved into one of them.

The outcome will still be the same. I would eventually get out of the tunnel and into the light again. But where I come out is unknown. But the important thing is for me to come out from the dark.

The pain will still be there thats for sure. I am after all still human and as Samantha puts it, one cannot just switch it off like the ceiling lights in your room. It will take some time but hey it always does. I have not met a human who can truly honestly say he or she can shut feelings off immediately.

And as I look outside my window, memories of my friends and their encouragement continue to flood my mind. The words they said, the smiling faces and the fun times we had over the week ever since my world crashed in.

I suppose with all that, this decision while painful in its nature, might not hurt me that much after all. And thats what living the human life is all about. Living and moving on with life's trials with people around you. A single chopstick can be broken easily, but add a few more and it gets harder to break them together.

It has also been a good time of reflection for me. And I guess sometimes things like that bring you back to the narrow track when we gone astray. But I am thankful that whatever that came, whatever that needed a response from me, I did the right thing. Not that I am strong but rather HE has shown me bit by bit who I am and what I can do. After all, never once are we to be tested beyond what we are capable of.

The Sun is fully out on this side of Singapore and shines brightly on my window.
Its time to start a new day.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

Random Thoughts...

2008-04-14T19:32:00.000+08:00

Ok its raining outside, I am done with my Command & Conquer 3 and its expansion and I got no games to play. Cannot start on my Gundam Crossbone until I get another action base and more black paint.

I decided to hop over to apple trailers and take a look at what movies are coming so that in the boringness of my next few months until the "great" one comes back, I got things to look forward to.

*Hint to all my usual fellow movie junkies... call me out... I am bored...*

My Movie Watch List:

Ironman
Prince Caspian
Speed Racer
The Dark Knight
Indiana Jones 4

I would like to post the youtube trailers here but the beauty of widescreen and broadband means its better for me to provide you the link to get the HD versions of the trailer.

Maybe I should go read up Price Caspian again to refresh my memory or something to keep myself occupied. Well not that I have nothing to do but all FYP and no play makes Kenneth a boring person. And of cos I still got the whole collection of Indiana Jones to watch before the next one comes out.

Last but not least I wanna go grab Hikki's latest album to add to my collection. So if anyone wants to go out this week do let me know. Borred lah, nothing to do liaos at home.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

2008-04-14T12:16:00.000+08:00

"I Dare You To Move" by Switchfoot

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

One Week On...

2008-04-14T07:04:00.000+08:00

I awoke again and this time I did not bother to check the time. I knew the time from the picture outside my window. Its 0700 and a little bit. Last night sleep was the usual not complete type that I usually have.

Well at least my appetite is back on track. Finished a whole nugget meal except 6 pieces of fries and cold dessert after that yesterday.

I drag myself to my pc and first person I see online is good old Sebastian. I guess this is one of those times I am glad is he is in UK with the difference in time as I think the rest of the Singapore is still sleeping or on their way to work or school.

A chat later I think I get the general idea what is bothering me even after my mind is made up. The more I run from it, the more it comes back to haunt me. Or rather in this case the more I dun want to settle it with myself in my usual cross the bridge before I even get there way and leave it to come what may, the more I struggle with it inside.

I am learning to let go in another way which I am not comfortable with. I guess this is going to take time. But its only when I can let go in this way with no speculations of my future would I be ready to accept whatever comes my way fully.

Its going to be another 3 months before Sebastian comes back to Singapore. By then I would have completed my degree course and be looking for a job. Or rather I might take a break as he comes back the week immediately after my final year project presentation.

Maybe take the week off to spend some time with him catching up and of cos with the rest as I think he would also want to do some catching up with everyone. I still remember "Operation Sebastian" the last time he was back and boy did all hell break lose... lol.

Guess at the end of it all for now, this is something to look forward to. But for now, maybe I should try to go back and get some sleep or something. A new week has dawned and new challenges will arise as do every week of my life so far.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

The walk home...

2008-04-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

I always enjoyed having time to myself. From taking the mrt or bus to even just wondering around town for even as little as 5 minutes on my own just deep in thought.

Not that I dun like having people around, especially friends who always bring fun and laughter. But sometimes I do need time to think, to vent and to let go on my own. Its how I function so that once my friends are around, I can put those aside and hang out with them.

Dun get me wrong during the times when I dun open up to share my problems. I just dun feel fair to burden others into small stupid troubles that is pissing me off at the moment that I know I can settle on my own. But I guess I have definitely learn to open up abit more.

Well as usual, I decided to take a walk home rather than take the usual 112 from the interchange to the side door at my place. And at this time at night, its usually quiet where I can be deep in my thoughts to think.

The usual stuff came to mind. My plans for next week, I need to go down to town to get something, I got my fyp meeting in the middle of the week and of cos the Newcastle and Sunderland match.

My meeting with Samantha was the last thing that came to mind and I spent a good 5 minutes thinking about it and what she said. It was good to have seen here again after so long. Its so funny that we still can laugh about the same things.

Just as I reached the side door, I somehow felt a sense of peace. I guess "Mother" was right.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

*FYI, Samantha is my I-Guides "mother" from way way back. Ever since she made me and eddie eat our veg evertime we go out. lol*

The 4th Morning...

2008-04-13T08:05:00.000+08:00

I awake again to a brand new day at roughly the same time. Having looked out the window the past few days, the familiar picture fills my eyes.

Sure I have to wake up early today anyway but being this early means one thing and one thing only, I know what I must do and its going to hurt me the most. Everything finally fell into place and my mind has given approval to it.

I must now think and act based on logic and reason. All that I learned in the classroom must be applied the right way. All my values and upbringing must be there. I will come out doing the right thing no matter how much it will come back to hurt me in the end.

As the saying goes, "Only when the wound is clean can it heal properly". And we all know the cleaning of an infected wound comes at a cost of the pain.

I can only examine the past and analyse the present. No one can tell the future and I do not know what it holds for me. But sometimes the future can present us with surprises and things we will never expect as it has shown to me in just a short 7 days.

For in the end, the one who still feeds the sparrows will be there to hold my hand. And with that I have confidence once again to look forward to the future come what may.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

僕の世界消えるまで会えぬなら

2008-04-12T11:07:00.000+08:00

"Beautiful World" by Utada Hikaru

Hikki is back with her next album. Lots of great songs in it as expected from her. Catchy tune, nice upbeat melody and fitting for the theme song of Evangelion: 1.0 You Are (Not) Alone.

Guess only Kenneth can do such things. One mission, One Purpose. I will not fail as there can only be one Kenneth. In this situation, its gonna have to be me to settle it all. Call if a gut feeling, a prompting whatever. I wish it will not be me and still hope it will not.

The final analysis is out. Its not going to be a pretty sight. Everything has fallen into place, the direction found, the wheel set in motion. Its gonna be painful to do this coming out of my shell but at the end of it all, it must be done.

The only missing piece is when. For that I will continue to bear all this till the right time comes. And when it comes, watch out world, Kenneth is back.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

The 3rd Morning...

2008-04-12T07:12:00.000+08:00

I opened my eyes to the familiar darkness in my room. I could guess what the hour mark would be. But this time the last 2 numbers says 00. I tried to sleep early last night. But I always seem to fall asleep at the same time. And I always seem to wake upafter the 7 hour mark. Why... Maybe I know the answer but I just do not want to face it... Yet...

I remembered the dream I was having quite clearly. It was a childhood dream to superhero or some sort of super agent who saves the day with his gadgets(hey I am a techie right). And at the end He will always do the right thing with style.

I think I was sort of enjoying the dream, a super agent this time with funky weapons. Maybe in the back of my mind I was going to sleep until my alarm at 1000 would sound and I would wake up to another day.

But little did I realise that the dream somehow cut short itself. My body was waking up and as my mind start to awake, something hit me fast, furious and left a mark on me. I can still feel it now as I type this and is the reason why I am.

The reality of the whole situation finally hit me. Its implications, its potential outcomes and how it would impact my life after that. The many options I have now in light of everything.

I lay in bed trying to analysis everything as I have always done in my life. I wanted to find the best way out. There has to be a way. If I can work everything out to the point I was ready to go ahead back than, I can work it out now.

But sad to say, this morning's struggle produced no outcome. It was like walking along the tunnel in the dark with only that small light at the end giving me hope only to find that I have to make a choice when the tunnel branches out into 2, 3 or even as many 5. Each with a small light at the end.

And now I stop at that point really not knowing what to do. I mean I know what needs to be done. By right I could do this, it is the right thing to do but is it the correct thing to do? There are so many options, so many routes to do this. Which is the best way?

I guess reality checks are always the most painful of the lot. And maybe thats why people including myself sometimes leave it till the last. Trying their best to see if things can be worked out before it comes. But when it comes, it really does. My whole chest area feels heavy. Its like I am slowly running out of air underwater and it gets harder to breathe.

Well I have no idea how to face this one. People talk about the outcome and thats it. I tend to think more. Maybe its due to my upbringing or the way I am trained or conditioned to think.

I know that in every outcome I will do fine. There is never a doubt now about not doing the right thing. Just that inside of me something worries...

Still fighting on,
Kenneth.

Food And Thought...

2008-04-11T15:45:00.000+08:00

I know many people are worries about my appetite so here is a post for you.

I woke up, headed to the kitchen and found this in the oven. Managed to chomp down 1 so those still worried about my sugar only diet, well I think things are starting to get better. Well not back to normal but something is always better than nothing.

Anyway I got a call from my Dad asking me to check me email. What I found was so sweet that I couldn't resist but go awwww. Today is his last day at work or rather as a teacher at the nearby neighborhood school as he will be taking up a new post with a new emerging company in the HR department.

And if I know my dad, he will just inform the school and hand over stuff in his usual quiet way. But I guess the school or at least people who interact with him had other plans. Pictures were taken, letters were written and so on. What I received in the email was a short video production of my dad and the people around him.

Considering that my dad was only a relief teacher for the school for around 2 years, I guess in his own way he must have touched the lives of many there. I was looking at the letters from staff and students alike and for a moment my pain and hurt left me to be happy for him.

And from that moment on, I understood what a friend meant by this(with my own words):

"One reason why everyone doesn't need to think twice about supporting you now, old friends, new friends, friends who are not here physically or you do not see everyday is because there must be something that you are or have done to make a positive impact in their lives.

Do not let them down, do not prove them wrong and fight on. And one day when the time comes for you to do the same thing, show the same support and maybe even more."

And that made perfect sense to me,
Kenneth.

The 2nd morning...

2008-04-11T07:51:00.000+08:00

And with what seems to be the perfect weather for me to get my much needed sleep after not getting enough of it over the last few days, I wake up again to a not so distant memory.

Flash backs hit me hard and I woke with a cold sweat. I search for the time and it seems the number match yesterdays. Well at lest the first 2. Seems I got about 15 minutes more of sleep but thats no consolation I guess.

The pain in my ankle has gone down as expected with it getting used to the extra distances that I seem to be gaining over the weeks. Thats one comforting thought I got to start my day.

My attention turns to my Final Year Project. After yesterday's meeting, the group now has a sense of direction I hope. Its been overdue for 2 weeks. I was suppose to settle that first before deciding what to do with my emotions. Guess the irony is that if I swap the weeks where emotions came first followed by FYP, would it have made a difference?

My mind automatically plays various scenarios based on present analysis. Yes its good to know my that while my body automatically distributes the pain, my brain seems to be left out.

And of most scenarios seems to point to a general consensus. My FYP would still be on track and this whole situation would not have happened. The details different but the general outcome the same. Whatever the outcome or situation, less pain would have been involved even in the worst outcome.

I pick up my phone to turn the alarm off and I feel a sense of weakness in my arms. Yup it seems the little weights I do at night is getting to me. Do I need to put a break to that as well?

And as I look out my window, words I read somewhere seem to hit me:

"Take it from someone who spent the better part of last spring angry at the world, it's not worth it. I mean, it might numb the pain a little bit, but it's basically just a distraction. My point is: if you do it right, Jen, loving somebody is gonna hurt and the sooner you let yourself feel that, the sooner you'll be able to love again."

-Dawson's Creek

Well until than, I guess I will go on trying to heal myself from this hurt and pain. Family and Friends have shown without a doubt they will be there for me. But sometimes it takes the person himself to want to move on. And that is something that must be done alone.

For me, until I wake up one day with the final conclusion that I have moved on, the pain will not disappear. It will slowly get better I know and lets hope my character as a person with both heart and mind will not let me down this time as it has shown to be strong till the end time after time.

I know I want to heal and feel again what I thought was never real. I want to let go of the this pain and move along. I want to heal and again feel close to something real. I want to find that thing that I wanted all long.

And only than will I be ready again.

Still Fighting On,
Kenneth.

My Sugar Rush

2008-04-11T00:09:00.001+08:00

Have not been eating well the past few days as my appetite levels dropped to a bare minimum. Seems like the only thing that I can take is sweet stuff. Savory stuff just refuse to go in. Just my body's way of distributing the pain. As if the pain from my ankle is not bad enough.

So since the only thing that is going in is sweet stuff, I decided to go for a sugar rush.

First off was Hersey's Chocolate Pie at BK during my FYP group meeting. Forgot to take a picture of it but it was hard as rock when I got it. Had to let it melt abit before I could get it into my stomach.

Next up was Root Beer Float to keep me going as all I had the whole day before this was the chocolate pie. Been so long since I had root beer float and it sure hit the spot.

Next was off to taka basement for dinner at some german sausage bar. Somehow my appetite came back to me a little. Either that or it smelt really good.

Thats $14 for that plate, a cup or soft drink and apple crumple or soup. Good stuff and I managed to finish almost everything but half of the middle sausage.

After the main dish, next up is the apple crumple. Forgot to turn on macro mode thus the blurred picture. No I only had one plate. Would love to have two but I need to watch my weight especially when I decided that I would take a break this week before continuing my training.

And if that wasn't enough sugar, it was off to coffee bean for my usual favorite, hot chocolate.

Janet with the first shot.

Elliott trying his hands at taking photos from a different angle.

A candid shot. Quite cute lah, 3 person busy with psp.

Still feeling quite high now due to the amount of chocolate. Many thanks again for everyone for taking time off their busy schedule to meet up even though it was very last minute as I myself could only confirm quite late due to my no fixed timing FYP meetings.

*And not forgetting sebastian who was there as well over msn talking about donuts*

Still fighting on,
Kenneth.